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Wow what an ugly word. I usually try to mind my own business, but now I am in the void of a scene. A drama scene that individuals think it is funny to cause a rift by publicly slandering a person with absolutely no reason. It was against me yes. I have not made comment on it, because it simply isn't true. However, let me remind you, people can and are sued for slander. And that was publicly.
Let me tell you what is up with me. You see, I've been diagnosed with Systemic Lupus and RA aggravated by sever Fibromyalgia. Oh it doesn't stop there. I also have Sjorgens. Meaning my eyes have the perpetual feeling as if I have welder burn or sand thrown in my eyes. Its painful. My mouth is so dry, my gums have receded and show the roots of my teeth. There is no cure for this. Not to mention my back has been attacked and now I can step out of a car just to have my back go out, and no one to help me. But I make it crawling through the gate (always open now), crawling up the stairs and into my house. With a great deal of pain, I do certain exercises so I can stand up. :) and you betcha, life keeps on going, it just really bites sometimes.
Many folks have something much worse.
I try not to complain. Over the course of time I have been here, I have been degrading. I am now being flown to Seattle every three months.
Fact, I cannot work as right now. I am in the middle of a disability hearing. Rather than let this all "beat" me, I do gardening. That's right. Indivduals who have immaculate gardens and yards can't always keep up with them for what-ever reason. I am PROUD to be a gardener. The look on a person's face and the compliment on how well I do really does the confidence some good. I pull weeds too, but that's not all I do. I used a resource I learned while being on a farm. I pulled on wht I have that I can offer others and they'd pay cash for it. I do get paid in in tips and donations. I am living off of 360 a month, rent is 350. However, I, so far, for the past 5 months have been able to eek by and pay my bils the very best I can. :) I am proud of that.
It is definately strenuous work. This is with taking the weekly Chemo, weekly immunosuppressants, and other nasty things. Until I can find a solution by collaborating with other herbalists, I continue to do what I am told.
I have NEVER been on this lovely site for those who hurt in the the very pit of their stomach or heart, to beg for money. I used my head. I was declared 100% disabled over 2 years ago. Sometimes disability cases are very sticky and hard to deal with. Usually a person is always denied. Then they are denied again. This is the way it is because most folks give up. I am not going to. I have lawyers now to fight for me. I do have a hearing in October, finally.
Gossip is a very very serious event in a person life who is dealing with so very much. Especially being a widow on top of it. Or having a dang tree fall on the house. You buck up and deal with life. But to blatantly lie and create a drama so spectacular that the other person begins to lose what they thought were friends, most unfortunate.
Also, childish. You can empathize with everyone, but it is incredibly childish and immature to set out to purposely hurt another person.
Before you grab on to a public news flash, be educated about it. For example, making a person out to be violent with violent crimes. Well, if a person works for the Federal government and is often contracted, they have to have a background check that is completely clean for 15 years. Also, they have to go through drug testing. Then they have to go through financial background check. That's right. When you are cleared for certain important responsibilities, the feds must ensure you are clean.
Why do I bring this up here in our wonderful WV. Because unfortunately, this is where it started. It only takes on person to cause so much damage to a place as important as WV.
Please, before you run away thinking oh too much drama, or I can't handle that along with what I am going through, put your foot down. You have the right to tell anyone, I'm sorry but I really do not have the ability to deal with gossip and drama.
I apologize for not being here as often as I would like. But quite honestly...I have a good reason. A time comes when a person MUST focus on their well being and that includes socially, financially, and emotionally.
I have neither dropped anything I am working on. :) They have taken turns to new doors opening. I am okay with my life right now. :)
If at any time you feel you are being pressured into giving money, giving time you truly do not have, feeling bullied into buying something from someone or feeling forced to give them control of what you do allowing them to control YOUR life. Remember YOU have the right to say, no.
This is an extreme. Often a person means well. This is different. You can always clear that up simply by saying, "I feel as if..." but to be flat out bullied. No. Turn it into Supa and if that person is no longer on this site, you can block them from yours.
Again, from an old post I made, women or men, check into your local shelter and get a list and some information of what abuse is. Remember, we were with someone who loved us. It is so easy for us to trust.
God bless you all, I hope I have cause no offense. But sometimes a person needs to bring forth sensitive issues.
Thank-you for listening.
Good morning RobinK,
I am not sure about what you are talking about but you really nailed it with this. Thank you for sharing a part of you and for being so honest. I so totally agree with with you have posted.
Yes, it is an ugly word and one I do not like to participate in myself therefore I work very hard sometimes to keep my comments to myself.
God bless you and hope your day gets better. Hugs being sent your way.
Well, it seems I bounce back faster than I was! So ya, all is well. I can now switch modes and keep on moving! :) Feels good, been a long time I've partially felt myself.