You are new to this as well. You are correct our spouses would want us to keep going. I know for sure Jack does. I know all the emotions you are going through. Your wife's cancer went quick as well. I don't we had enough time to take it all in.
I am really sorry (You probably hear that a lot, everyone is sorry)
It is overwhelming those first few months-I don't need to tell you that. Do you have family? Friends and family members can be very helpful, they can't take the pain away but they can support you as it comes in waves.
For me, its been almost 8 months, it still hurts. Some days are easier but then I come across an old photograph of us together that I'd forgotten all about and the wound splits open, again.
There are days when you will laugh again, and start to feel how shall I say, like a person again. I will omit words such as "whole" "complete" "renewed" because I honestly don't know if, or when I, or others will feel that again.
What helps me a lot to help others who are in pain, it gets me out of "me" so to speak. It helps me realize I am not the only person hurting on the planet, there are others who have lost loved ones and are suffering.
I'm not telling you what to do, this is what helps me. I need to interact with others, but then get rest and spend time alone. Alone, that is the challenge, getting used to that.
You and my daughter are in my thoughts and prayers (if you don't mind me praying for you).
Thank you for the kind words. Yes you may pray for me. Much appreciated.