6th b-day - forever forty-nine ...
60th birthday - forever 49 ...
I am looking forward to Halloween - first year I live in a fairly populated area, and, it is a holiday that does not have sad connotations for me, like Christmas and Thanksgiving. I want to be THAT house that gives out full size candy bars. And have a real jack o lantern. And maybe dress up funny.
Well vintage, tell me where you live ...because my 10 and 12 year old boys are mapping out all the houses that give out full size candy bars. No more small stuff for them! They love the houses that give out full size candy bars. One year my son said, 'Wow, they must have a lot of money!' Was very cute.
I remember the thrill of getting one when I was a kid. I always thought "Fun" size were mis-labeled. I am now in a town center in an otherwise rural area, the kind of place where people drive their kids and then park while the kids walk to the houses.
Just one idea for your sons - reversible costumes .... hit the good houses twice. ;-)
That's beautiful, Diane.What a sweet remembrance.
October 18th was our wedding anniversary, and October 30th is the day Shane died last year, 2016. He entered the hospital on the 16th after becoming extremely jaundiced on the 15th, so really, a year ago today was our last normal day together, and I didn't know it. I have nothing recorded about that day. Expecting to have a lot of triggers over the next two to three weeks.
October is a triple whammy for me. I lost my beloved husband on October 12, his birthday is October 14th and our favorite holiday was Halloween. It has been 3 years but still feels like yesterday. I miss him so.
Tomorrow would be my husband's 60th birthday, he died in May this year. So first birthday... he never wanted big parties, didn't have many close friends but we always celebrated at home with a cake (a brownie, his favorite) and on Saturday we would go for a nice dinner to a local restaurant. I do not think I can go to the same place without him but me and my daughter will go to a nice dinner somewhere.
I do not know what to do about tomorrow, I cannot think of anything I could do to celebrate him without him. I'm very depressed and crying every day since last weekend, thinking about his birthday approaching and all those future milestones I would have to celebrate without him. I do not like my life at the moment. I miss him so much...
My DH died this May and it would have been his 70th birthday on October 19th. I was dreading the day, but I made myself really busy. I gave a talk at the mental health charity where I volunteer and then canvassed surveys in a nearby part of London for a political party where I'm a candidate. Then I looked after my 3 year old grandson.
I was so busy, I didn't have time to feel too nostalgic. I find the worst days for me are Sundays , because we always spent the day together walking the dog. I now know I have to find something to do to stop myself getting maudlin and feeling sorry for myself.
I'm sure your DH will be with you in spirit on his birthday and won't want you to be sad. Just think of the good times together fondly and raise a glass to the good life you had together. Tell him how you're moving forward for his (and your) sake.
Thank you Lindi. I survived but last week was very difficult and awful. So many emotions, words from somebody who maybe had good intentions but caused me a lot of pain, lots of tears but also trying to make a new memories. I took my daughter to lunch at the place we never went with my husband-to have a new memory, to be able to refer to something just the two of us did.
Keeping busy helps but I am sometimes to tired of keeping busy... I still just want my previous life back. I struggle with the idea of him watching over us-I do not feel his presence at all, I just do not feel this way. I wish I had. Good memories do not bring me comfort (yet?). We've been married only 16 years, I grieve all those years that were to be as well as those that were. Maybe one day I will, I do hope so.
Thank you for your kind words, it meant a lot to me that you wrote here.