My house is much too big for one person and the maintenance is difficult for me, but I am so undecided if I want to sell it and, if I did, where would I go? So many folks advise to wait a year. Well, I'm 5 months into this journey and feel that I need to start looking at the possibilities. Given that my Jim's death was sudden and unexpected, I had NEVER considered anything other than staying here till we were both gone.
I'm 63 which is relatively young, but old enough to not feel that I have the energy or interest to start a whole new life. Maybe things will change as this grief process unfolds, but it is hard for me to want to think about all the changes required to sell this house and then move elsewhere. On the other hand, I just cannot bear the thought of living out the rest of my life here in the old 6 bedroom house with the original 1968 furnace. My hubby was very good at doing a bit of maintenance here and there; he knew when and who to call in to fix things before they broke it seems. My cash flow is not as good as ours was before our nest egg became an "estate" that had to be divided.
I'm wondering what others are thinking. What are the pitfallls? Did anyone have some success with staying? Or with moving?
Thanks so much to all of you out there who share so much of yourselves here. Hugs!
It's been around 1 1/2 months since Kim passed. I am definitely staying in the house for a while. We rent from a friend who has been great. Plus the community is amazing and the schools are great. In the entire 3rd grade, there are only 50 kids, many who my son and I are close with the families.
Also, now that I am no longer a caregiver for my wife, I find myself with more time and need to do house projects that she wanted. Most ambitious is the wall over the stairs, she had frames and plaques sitting at the bottom for the 4 plus year we live there. She never felt up to telling me how she wanted it, and I didn't do it on my own because 1) I knew she would not like "my" way, and 2) didn't want to bang on walls when she was sleeping during the day. One day last week, I decided to go through the stuff and put it up. Weeded out some very "girly" stuff, and added some pics and frames. The enclosed pic is actually only about 2/3 of what is up now.
My other project has been the foyer on the ground level coming in from garage. Bought some shelves and benches and other decor to make it a pleasing to the eye mud-room.
As long as my owner will have me, I plan on staying in this house.
Very nice and good for you!
I like my home. It is paid off. But the large yard with mature landscape and many trees and an almost non-existent sprinkler system is something that I will one day not be able to keep up. And I really dislike yard work; my husband enjoyed it. I have made a number of upgrades since my husband passed away 10 months ago such as new windows, new toilets, new water heater, repaired his old car, and so forth. Have spent money that I never would have done if he were with me. And this is a unique property that is almost like a place of retreat. I have room for guests and so forth as well. And there are memories here. I can look over at Dan's easy chair and can almost envision him there; he spent a lot of time in that chair!
I would consider moving at some time to a smaller property with a yard I can manage but I would like another unique property if I can find one. This yard takes way too much time, energy, and water. It is lonely here without my family. I miss my husband and our sons are grown and have their own lives now. Maybe in a new place, the lonliness would not be so much?
So I think going.on.slowly said it best. The pain is there no matter what or where. If I had stayed in Florida I would have been reminded of the places my wife and I used to go to. The move to Ohio was meant for me to be with family and help that out. But it really did not and I find myself longing to go back. So it hurts - it is crushing and gut wrenching. Our hearts feel like they have been ripped out and we ask why. So in my experience relocating did not really help my loneliness situation. But this is a person by person choice. It could be different for you. Take care and warm regards ...