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The obsession of starting a new relationship

My post is not to challenge/criticize anyone but to try and understand the need for many surviving spouses to focus so very quickly (from days to 3 years) on finding someone. I don't subscribe to "Life must go on" scenario since that sounds like more of an excuse to validate ones behavior.

Personally, I don't see myself in another relationship...ever. But that is because I am a bit of an introvert and that Janet said she would haunt me if I brought another women into the house. Now, I know she was kidding but I understand by her comment that she wanted me to honor her respectfully. 

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This widower was in the group who said that I was never going to date again.   I had a good run with my deceased wife for nearly 20 years. (See screen shot for exact length of marriage).  In my 2nd month on Widville one of the ladies sent me her phone number through Widville mail asking me to call her.  I was shocked by this and had no intention of calling her.  We had friended one another and had a couple emails to each other via Widville but I didn't anticipate exchanging phone numbers.  Another email from her through Widville email and she was still awake having a bad night like I was and it 2:00 a.m.  Now I never cheated on my deceased wife and calling this lady from Widville seemed so wrong like I was cheating on my deceased wife. 

Then I got to thinking about the 2-times my deceased wife when living woke me up in the morning of the night crying and ordering me to be happy when she was gone.   Dazed and confused by this the 1st time I asked what are you talking about ?  She went on to basically order me to find another love for my own sanity, happiness, and hopefully a good role model for our 2 school age daughters.   Both times I was woke up and given this order it made me made.   I said there is no way I am going to do this because I'm married to you. 

So at 3:00 a.m. I got to thinking if I'm in the Indianapolis area and the lady from Widville is from Delaware what harm could come from talking on the phone especially if I set and adhered to some boundaries.  I told myself we'd never see each other so one call couldn't hurt anything.   

This lady from Widville  (Delaware) and I talked about our deceased spouses for 3 solid hours with the both of us crying our eyes out on the phone.   Turns out she was never going to date anyone either.   Now I'm feeling safe around this woman because we're both on the same page here and feeling very much still married to our deceased spouses.  At the end of the call she asked if we could chat more later on in the future should one of us get to having a bad day.   I was feeling a little bit better having talked to another person who completely "got my pain" and said yes by all means we should continue to talk as it helped the way I was feeling and she said it helped her too.  Time went on and we had many more phone calls and more tears than either of us could count. Then we noticed that we were excited about coming home from work again and couldn't wait to hear how the other person's day went.   We literally went from 2 people who couldn't get out of bed for our grief to 2 people who were now working again and had a purpose.  The lady from Delaware was a sales representative and at the time I was a field inspector for earthen dams in Indiana.  So with me going to the field by myself and sometimes running into dangerous situations she wanted to know my schedule in case I didn't answer her call or make a call to her at the end of the day.   She and I were inadvertently checking in with one another just like we both had when our spouses were alive. 

Then one day I was going to the field and she was in a sales meeting when she saw the CNN scroll on the boardroom TV telling of several tornados in Indiana.  She excused herself from the meeting so she could call me and find out if I was OK.  She literally freaked out crying on the phone when she heard through the phone all the hailstones hitting my truck and the tornado sirens sounding.   I told her to hold on as I was going to try and outrun this storm because I could see where it ended.   It was at this moment when we both realized that we both had a lot of "Living Yet To Do".  

Long story somewhat shorter.   We both were out on dates locally that didn't work out.  We made arrangements to get together in person.   But before that happened I had someone ask me to consider another lady who lived in Baltimore.   I  asked the lady in Delaware what her thoughts were about she and I having a serious relationship given our vast differences; 16-years age difference, me with 2 kids and her with none ect. etc.  The lady in Delaware said that we would make better friends than long-term lovers as she didn't want to have kids or to become an instant mom.  She urged me to go out on this blind date and give her the scoop.  Well I did go out on the blind date (Baltimore) and eventually married her.   

Get this, on one of my trips to Baltimore my blind date and now 2nd chapter wife Tamela and I went on a double date with the lady in Delaware; she and  her then date - now husband attended my 2nd wedding. The lady from Delaware and I are best friends still to this day. 

So that is the short story of my story. 

Now I tell all widowed people to never say never when it comes to dating after loss. 

Take care. 



Thanks for your post.

Although my intention is not to date your post (and others) helps me realize that my opinion is just what it opinion, not a roadmap for everyone.


Wow! Great story, Doug!


I will relate to you my thoughts.

My whole world crashed not long ago. In real time it crashed the day the doctors told us there was little to no hope, other than time. We went from being the happiest people in the world to spending all of our time talking about pills doctors appointments and many other issues we dealt with to get that extra time. She was till the very end the wonderful lady and gave me everything that is important in life. Friendship, companionship, warmth, counsel and someone to care about more than I could ever care about myself. One word about how I feel about my late wife - "worshiped" her completely as the goddess I feel she was. She will forever be my heart and my soul.

I wake up everyday feeling dead!

I go to bed every night feeling dead!

I shake which I never ever did before.

Worst times are at 5:30 am and 5:30 pm. The time we woke in the morning and the time she walked in the door in the afternoon. 

Well guess what Rich, talking to another person about what I was going through and the times of day that hurt the most something so nice happened.

Another widow who lost her husband texted me at 5:30 the other morning - "Good morning hope you have a good day". Well let me tell you I did have a good day it was so nice for someone in this world to think about me. We do not live close by, it is not a relationship, it is a friendship that is nice. It makes the pain go away for brief moments.

Should something ever happen, which another lady enters my life, that would be wonderful. She will be a very special person, just like Sharon, as she will have to share my heart with another forever. 

For me honoring my lady also means I will feel the joy and happiness that we shared for almost 40 years going forward. Talking to her picture and crying because she isn't coming in the door at 5:30 is not honor it is self pity in my mind. I can only speak for myself but I want to feel again I want to live life with love of another. 

My father-in-law three times married, twice a widower. When Mom died he married within 4 months. When his second wife died he married again within a year. He just went through the same nightmare with me losing his daughter. I had dinner with them the other night and what I see is two of the happiest people in the world sharing life's good times and bad times. We talked about Sharon, Mom and if they can do anything to help me. Well they are and did by showing me how we never forget and having love and happiness in your life it the most important part of life. 

So to twist your words, I subscribe "Life will go on" is an excuse to love deeply again. My wife told me she did not want me to go through live alone but could not stand the idea of me ever touching another.  She was not kidding! But my friend unless she comes in the door at 5:30 one of these days I am not sure I will be able to live up to her wishes for the rest of my life. I do know she is not coming in the door @5:30.

Food for thought!

I had an interesting encounter with one of the guys I met on a sweet, smart man whose wife had died only a couple of months earlier after a long fight with cancer.  SHE had told him to find happiness again.  So had his friends.  He was about to go off on a 2-week motorcycle trip a few days after our date.  I sent him a nice note afterwards and never heard from him again.  I suspect he decided he just wasn't ready to date again- they'd been HS sweethearts, so probably married close to 50 years.  I understood that.  I hope that our date at least showed him there are decent women out there when he's ready.

I'm always impressed at the fortitude of people like your FIL.  I watched someone I loved for along time get sick and die and I'm very grateful I was there to take care of him; it was only the last couple of months that were really hard.  I don't want to do that again even though it also means I might not have that support when I need it.  The ones who impress me are the ones who care for a spouse during years of a long, degenerative disease and then remarry- and I know two very happy marriages that started after that type of loss.  I don't think I'd be able to do it.


Funny thing is both of my FIL wives died of diseases. He was not really part of their day to day care but he was there. He is very religious and completely believes God has a plan and just keeps marching forward. Second wife was maybe not a great marriage but he never complains. Third wife is a wonderful lady who has helped him become a much better father. He was there for his Daughter in the last year which he never was before. They are almost 80 and married 3 years ago.

As for me, eleven months ago I took the afternoon off work to go to the doctors with my wife and never went back to work except for a few weeks in the summer which she kind of made me go as she felt I needed a break. I wish I did not do that, we should have spent that time at the lake. I was at her side for every moment this past year. She passed with me holding her, a movie kind of ending to tell you the truth. I think I am the luckiest man in the whole world to have been loved and was able to love an incredible lady for all of my adult life. Looking after Sharon was the greatest thing I could ever have done in my life. It was the hardest, but I know in my heart I kept her comfortable. She never asked for anything in life but to stay home and not be in a hospital. I made that wish come true. She never spent one night during the illness in a hospital. Saying it was an honor doesn't come close to the way I feel. Looking into her eyes, she knew each and everyday I would do everything I could to protect her. Only thing I could not do was save her, but damn we tried! Do I have have bad memories of this last year - you bet I do, some stuff will haunt me, but I did the best I could and no one could have done better. 

Would I do it again - YES  Should I ever be lucky enough to love this deeply it would be easy.

I have no idea what the future looks like. Right now I am staring at a black (and I do mean black) canvas. I very much doubt I will ever marry again. Not sure anyone would want to hook up with someone that is completely in love with a ghost, for the rest of his life, but one never knows.

One thing I do know is I spent the last 12 hours in such a sad state it has to get better as I cannot imagine it worse. Never in my life have I cried so frigging hard and deeply. 

Today at 7:48pm it will be one month but at times it feels like it has been forever since I held that sweet soul!

Sorry Rich - I think I kind of took your tread off topic!



Man oh man your narrative could be mine.

I went with Janet to the doctor and never went back to my job of 20 years. She was diagnosed with PC and we only had 43 days until she passed. Janet also spent a couple days at the hospital but wanted to come home, which we did despite the doctors recommendations. She passed with me next to her at home. All our time together, even during her short illness was the greatest blessing, honor and privilege of my life.

After almost four years your post brings tears to my eyes. No, this is something I will never "get over" nor want to.  

The night before Janet passed I was telling her "I love you" and she would respond "I love you too". On the gravestone under ours names is engraved that last conversation.


I myself have no interest in dating.  I lost my husband 11 months ago. I am 56 years old.  We were a perfect match.  Married almost 20 years.

In my humble opinion, I think the lonliness is deafening when you lose your spouse.  I can understand why people choose to date after the loss of their spouse.

I guess it varies from person to person. I applaud anyone who can recover from their grief and look for love again.

I feel the same.  I lost my soul mate of 20 years almost 8 months ago.  I'm 57 years and even though I get out and do things, it's not the same without "my perfect match."  Friends and family have been very supportive, but I try not to show how I feel inside around them too much.

Best wishes to you!


Geez, I feel a little bad about posting this topic.

The more I think about it the more I realize that widows/widowers need positive topics not ones that reaffirm the misery they are going through. While I am conscientiously committed to not "moving on" my hope is that others will.


Please don't feel bad at all about posting this topic. I for one and very happy that you did post it. I for one see my choice to not get involved in another relationship as something very positive. I thought I made that clear in my initial response. I have moments of sadness and I will always miss my husband but I don't equate my decision to remain unattached as being misery. One of the reasons I enjoy this site is it allows me and others to address a number of issues surrounding this new journey that we are on. So, I thank you Rich for posting this and hope you will continue posting. Take care.

I agree with DIVA70's replies, Rich, both above and below. We all do things and want to hear how others are handling being widowed--even those of us who are further out than many of the recent arrivals to this web site.

After a thirty-year marriage, I dug in my heels and said I would never date again. My own parents were after me to date a mere four months after Judith died. I was horrified with their attitude, but I also cut them slack because they were just being parents--even though I was 54 at the time and they were 77. I wasn't so kind to others who encouraged me to date back then, but eventually decided that it was the thing for me to do. I'm now approaching 63 and figure that the likelihood of me ever getting married again lies somewhere between "Slim" and "None". If something ever happens and you find yourself changing your mind about dating, try not to beat yourself up as I did several years ago. Life will continue to bring its own changes, whether we like it or not.


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