I'm so sorry for your loss, Lonely Girl. We do have other COVID19 widows here and I hope they respond to you here.
May I suggest you join our Widowed in 2020 group? There is a post in there on this topic: http://widowedvillage.org/group/widowed-in-2020/forum/topics/covid-...
To join a group just click on the +Join button up near the top right corner of the page.
We are also hosting a weekly Zoom call for our Newly Widowed members every Tuesday (3pm Pacific; 6pm Eastern) along with a second Zoom call for any Widowed Village member on Saturdays (9am Pacific; Noon Eastern). If you'd like to join us, send an email to [email protected] and I'll send you the links.
Lonely Girl, my deepest sympathies to you. I wish there was an answer for the tragedy of your loss.
Lonely Girl, nothing anyone can say or do at this time will ease your pain or answer your question. Just know you've found a caring place here. I am so sorry.
that is so sad; people don't realize that people are losing loved ones - its happening everywhere.
You will have to travel through the devastating review of early years, through years raising kids and being a "family."
Then it changed; we were serendipitously brought together and could not stop thinking about each other ever since.
It was innocent enough in the beginning, until we realized that we were in love - omg!!!!!