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Comment by NoLongerInBergenJC on Sunday

@riet:  I long ago abandoned any attempts to try to make sense out of the universe.  It is so much easier, and really more sensible, to just recognize that the universe is random and stuff happens.  There are things we can't always control.  I have a sister who thinks that because she is vegetarian, eats only organic foods, and gets regular exercise, that she'll never get cancer.  Perhaps this improves her odds, but it offers no guarantees.  And she DOES have osteoporosis.

NONE of us gets out of here alive.

There is freedom in stopping trying to look for fairness in the universe.  Hopefully we learn some things in our journeys around the sun.  That's the best I can come up with right now.

One reason I started going through things immediately is that I wanted to start while I was still numb enough to do it.  

Last week I consigned my husband's ashes to the turquoise Caribbean sea.  And yet I still have one of his blazers, two dress shirts, and two storage bins with clothes, memorabilia, and an old, dirty, stuffed gorilla named Macbeth.  I don't even know why I keep Macbeth; it pre-dates when my husband even knew me.  But I do.

Comment by riet on Sunday

At almost 6 months, I thought it would be good to start to clean up the shed. My husband was a collector of all technical stuff.  And mostly of car parts, new or old.  That shed was filled to the roof.  

For me and our kids, this stuff meant nothing, or so I thought.  A dear friend offered to help with the tidying up.  We worked there for about 2 days. And divided the good and the worn stuff. Our friend took a lot with him: things we did not even knew the name of.

But after those two days, I felt as tired as never before. And only can think:  no more tidying up for the next months.  We'll wait at least till after winter.

Because  everything that went away, more or less broke my heart.  I saw again with how much care and enthusiasm he collected all this.

And how it collected a lot of dust in the 4 years of his illness.

And I suddenly felt the pain he must have felt, leaving all of this. Not being able to take care of anything anymore.

Not of the stuff, not of us.

I became so angry and sad because of the cruelty of life. I am not religious, nor was my husband.  But I can't help asking, why, why why.

I see now, every life, every love is a drama, because it has to end.  I more or less accept that.  But the suffering before he died, I cannot. 

At this moment, I am very upset with that.  I can't get it out of my head. And it makes me feel vey very tired.

I respect religious people a lot. And I can see the comfort in believing.  But that doesn't help me for a bit.  Because I only know: this suffering should not have come to my husband, and not to anyone else. 

It took away all dignity.   

I wished so badly that he should not have experienced this. Somehow I should have protected him.

I have to take it a bit more easy, because now I have very little energy left.

hugs to all of you

Comment by on October 11, 2018 at 5:07am

Thank you Tess. I’m a Hallmark watcher too! I get that. Happy endings are comforting. I appreciate your comments and advice.

Comment by Tess on October 10, 2018 at 3:50pm

Hi At just over two years out, I do feel your pain. It is hard to conjure up enthusiasm when there is none to be had.

I adopted small ways to at least make myself feel content, since happiness is so elusive. I don't apologize for watching Hallmark movies where everything is wonderful and tied up in a neat bow at the end. Since my life cannot be that way, I get the happy ending vicariously.

I especially identify with not wanting to make commitments. I also have a fear of not following through, so instead of getting caught in inaction, I just don't commit to things unless they are short term.

Maybe just try to accept that you have limitations right now. Otherwise, not only are you unable to follow through with these activities, you guilt yourself for not being able to do so.

For the life of me, I don't understand how people transform their grief into something positive. I can't get there, at least not yet. Maybe for you and me there will be a point where everything becomes clear and the path doesn't seem so full of obstacles.


Comment by on October 10, 2018 at 2:45pm

Hi everyone. It’s coming up to four years this November since I lost my husband. I thought by now I would have regained some skills I’ve lost. Like concentration and motivation to attempt or complete things I like to do. I once an avid reader,  now I don’t want to pick up a book. I loved to crochet, and I do attend my group most of the time, but it I feel no enthusiasm. I guess you all get the idea. i thought these interests would eventually return, but as time goes on as I live alone, the less I desire to become involved in anything. I especially don’t want to make commitments from fear of not following through. I’m so lost.

Comment by chef (John) on October 9, 2018 at 1:29pm

Yes, this is very normal.

Comment by LP on October 9, 2018 at 4:07am

Absolutely normal. I doubt there is anyone here who hasn’t done the same on passing milestones. It’s not been long at all I’m any case. 

C’ Birthday is next Monday. I have to work that day but I have my darling stepdaughter and grandson visiting on the weekend to help me through. 

Comment by booktime (Susan) on October 9, 2018 at 4:05am

Tekwriter - yes.

There is no "normal" in grieving - it is such a personal journey, different for each of us.

Be good to yourself and allow yourself to grieve.


Comment by Tekwriter on October 9, 2018 at 4:01am

It has been 6 months. Yesterday was awful. Cried on and off all day. Just thought of things all day that reminded me of him. Is this still normal?

Comment by Tekwriter on October 6, 2018 at 5:53am

I will check and see when the next set of classes are. I had been waiting since May. They are not close together. If they are in the bad weather I won't drive, so we will see. I am not a new people person, which I guess is bad.


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