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Comment by LP on May 17, 2019 at 6:54am

Yes, I'm going through that too in my second year - i feel no enthusiasm for anything. Don't get me wrong - I have tried - went on a hiking holiday in Mallorca with a good friend, met friends for coffee and dog walks etc. I've tried the "fake til you make it" approach but it doesn't work. If anything, it just points up the gulf between how I feel inside and the world around me (which gets on with life). Nothing seems to get me out of that "meh" attitude to everything. And yes, I think we all have that feeling after the first anniversary of "OK, I've done my time mourning, I want my reward now(the loved one back alive)". And the realisation that it's not going to happen, not now, not ever, is a killer.

Comment by Tekwriter on May 17, 2019 at 6:39am

I wish I had thought of "okay you have been dead long enough, you can come back now". I wish it worked that way. but nope. I am past my first anniversary. I am past my irrational anger period. I am just lonely. I don't know what to do. I really don't want to do anything or go anywhere. I like to go to school but nothing here is free for seniors and I am broke since I just bought the house and neither of my sons are working yet. I did no go to the grief group. It is a long story, they are only 5 weeks long anyway, it is not ongoing. Maybe something will come up. Hope everyone has a good day.

Comment by Ultra2015 on May 17, 2019 at 6:17am

Made a decision.  Something that hasn't come easy since I lost Sandi.  I made one about 6 months ago about my car.  Sandi found our CRV to be very uncomfortable in the last year, so we went looking for a car.  I was looking for something practical and comfortable for her.  As we looked, everything I pointed out she said was boring or looked like a mini van.  Then she spotted a Toyota 4Runner that was all jacked up, big tires, and she basically needed a step ladder to get into.  But once in, she said she loved the seats.  And I believed her.  Truth be told she wanted me to have something fun and tough looking like all the younger folks around us have when she was gone. You know, pickups with wild wheels and off road tires that they never take off road.  So we bought it.  Then with in three months she couldn't get in it anymore and I had it de-pimped and had it restored to original.  Lowered it, regular tires, etc.  It took me a while but I finally traded the 4Runner in for a Tacoma that more fits my style and has a small truck bed for me to get stuff for the garden and such.  

Well that's a long intro into the fact that I'm selling my motorcycle.  Thats the Ultra15 HD.  We traveled many miles on a previous big Harley and traded our 06 for this 2015, brand new, in May 2015.  Then on June 9th she was diagnosed with MBD.  The original breast cancer had metastasized to her brain.  So for nearly 4 years now the Harley has sat in the garage with 1,200 miles on it.  Our last trip on the old Harley put on about 4,000 in one summer.  I called a friend at the dealership and tomorrow it goes.  I can't concentrate enough to feel safe on it, I don't want to ride with the groups from the club and I am sick of walking by it everyday.  So it has to go.  Just another piece of us that I am losing.  

The kids think its for the best.  They worry about me riding in this condition and have said if you feel better later on I can always pick up something smaller to tool around on.  It feels right and it feels like I'm leaving behind another piece of our life that I can't get back.  

Thanks

Ron

Comment by Roxi on May 17, 2019 at 1:08am

Riet the anniversary is a very hard day...even if i try to do something we like together... There' s no joy anymore without him....i try to see in different  ways but emotions overwhelming me...one of the hardest is the need of seeing him again talkin' to him laughing with him...and is very devastating thing to do...i'm smiling reading melissa post..."you've ben dead long enough. You can come back now". Thank melissa for express so well my feeling... Ciao rox

Comment by booktime (Susan) on May 15, 2019 at 3:26pm

Tess, I agree. Things do get magnified! I can't think of anything specifically but I've been there for sure!

Gary'sWife, as a librarian, I was happy to hear your story! I always try to remember that everyone who enters the library comes with a story. Hopefully a joyful one but sometimes so very sad. And all we can do on the other side of the desk is try to make a bright moment in a dark day.

Comment by Gary'swife on May 15, 2019 at 2:26pm

Oh Tess....I hear ya/.   When we are under stress it's just so difficult to deal with these unexpected and irritating things.  I remember after my mother died I was at the library, and the librarian said I had book fines, and I kind of lost it....unjustifiably.  Luckily, librarians are some of the most patient, polite, people on earth.   Later I was shocked at how I had acted.  

Sending hugs and come here to vent anytime.

Comment by Tess on May 15, 2019 at 1:52pm

Hi all. I just needed to vent, to share, to feel bad with others that may have similar emotional responses. Today I got a parking ticket. Initially I was super infuriated, still am. It is because of the street cleaners coming through and I didn't have time to move my car. I am juggling a million things, selling my house and getting ready to move. I was so mad I called the police station. No, I didn't use profanity, though I clearly wanted to. I always have had a quick response when I feel that situations are unjustified. Now, I guess because I am alone and feel the need to defend myself, I get really pissed off. Things like this feel so magnified. Am I alone in this?

Anyway, I think I'll pay the fine in coins, mostly pennies, LOL.

Comment by riet on May 14, 2019 at 7:14am

Dear friends

Roxi and Allan,

I sympathize with you. These memorial days are that hard. Of course our loved ones are never out of our minds, but on some days you feel the loss much worse. 

 Melissa, it is sometimes very hard to find any energy if you are having a hard time. Sometimes you really long for the time when everything was so easy because it was " the two of you ". Now it's not just sitting alone en lonely in front of the TV, but making all the decisions yourself, processing all the dents of life itself. These tasks are sometimes so unclear . So heavy to do it on your own. Take  good care of yourself.

Shelley, Thank you for the insight you often give me in this search. I also really appreciate your messages.

Hugs for all of you, thank you for being there.

Comment by Ultra2015 on May 14, 2019 at 6:14am

I'm with you Allan.  15 months and I still miss my girl everyday.  Day by Day is all we can do I guess.  

Take care

Ron

Comment by Allan_sch on May 14, 2019 at 2:00am

Today is one year since my sweetheart went home to be with the Lord 

i miss her everyday. It’s been a tough year, but I take it just Day by day 

 

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