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Comment by Barzan on June 13, 2019 at 5:06am

Hello All,

Today marks 8 years that the love of my life took his last breath and left me to flounder in this confusing new life I have to build bit by bit.  This is the 1st time I will be at home - alone - on this anniversary.  Due to having had pneumonia and still recovering, I'm not able to travel right now.  Just want to ask everyone to send me some good vibes to help me navigate this day.

Thanks and hugs,


Comment by Tekwriter on June 13, 2019 at 4:57am

I am not traveling but I plan to have bariatric surgery in the next few months and I wonder how I will do without my husband. I am missing him so much this month after the first anniversary of his passing. What I would not five just to lay my head on his chest one more time. I have been in contact with some friends from when I worked in Wyoming 30 years ago and their lives have been so different. It is hard to make sense of it and the only person who could help with it is no longer here.

Comment by NoLongerInBergenJC on June 12, 2019 at 7:13pm

The hard part for me about traveling is when I land and everyone else whips out their cell phones and calls a wife, a husband, a daughter, a son. a parent -- SOMEONE who actually cares that the plane landed.  I miss having that person to call.  Friends just don't have that connection where they want to hear that you arrived safely. It's just not the same.  

Comment by KJPE on June 12, 2019 at 6:23pm

Also - I always feel anxious & tearful in airports, ever since I lost Greg.  don't know what there is about them - maybe the huge amount of red tape & waiting etc. and having to do it without my beloved.  But the feelings do not continue once I arrive to where I'm going.  So we mainly have to tolerate the airports...

Comment by KJPE on June 12, 2019 at 6:21pm

I sympathize, Riet, I'm not there yet either!  However, I'm traveling with girlfriends this summer, big trip.  I expect it to be fabulous.  I'm sure I'll compare it to going with my darling at one point or another but I hope I can enjoy it for what it is....

Alone, I haven't the nerve yet.

Comment by riet on June 12, 2019 at 12:21pm

I can not do it. Traveling alone. I can prepare everything and leave, but then .... nobody to share anything with. I can imagine that so vividly. No organized trip appeals to me. But what is the alternative? Stay here in this wet and fairly cold Belgium all summer? Maybe yes, : I still get a lot of visitors and together "going on an adventure" with my sweetheart is never possible again. But also ... I would really like to leave and see new things. But how????

A little while ago I heard a remark behind my back in the supermarket about: merry widows. I had to leave immediately. People really don't understand.

Comment by chef (John) on June 12, 2019 at 12:15pm

@Ultra: Panic is natural--especially for something as major as a trip to London.

Suzan is right: Sandi is always with you. The "firsts" are always hard...and you will be OK. If you're worried about packing, you can always go to The Great Google and type in something like "how to pack for a flight", "what not to pack in your carry-on" or something along those lines. You may or may not want to get a converter to recharge your camera or cell/smartphone. (And yes, take a camera along.) Check the weather websites to get an idea of what to expect when you get there--and what to pack. Be sure to have your passport handy.You can do this, and I will add my good vibes for you to Suzan's. 

@Bergen: Attending the wedding turned out to be a good thing--although I had my own misgivings after I had accepted the invitation and then went on to have my own panic attack the morning my flight was leaving Cleveland. The members of the bride's extended family were quite impressed that twelve Americans flew from the US to Africa to attend the wedding of their son/brother/godson/ cousin/friend. Following the European model, there were two ceremonies: the secular/"official" one at the government office and the church ceremony the next day. I attended both--and broke down during the "..'til death do us part..." segments on both days. [Of course, I had been a widower for only a year at that point.] I am still in touch with several people whom I met there some seven years ago. I agree that you made the right choice in handling you husband's ashes.

@Melissa: You're welcome.

Comment by Melissa on June 12, 2019 at 11:44am

I get it, Ultra. Just keep reminding yourself that you're going to see your son. That will be wonderful. London is so beautiful in early summer. You'll be good once you get there.

My passport expired last November; a year after Gilbert's death. I've had a current passport since I was 18 years old and it feels really odd not having one now. 

Comment by Barzan on June 12, 2019 at 6:54am

Dear Ultra,

I can relate to traveling alone for the 1st time without our mate.  Although I traveled stateside often with work, never abroad alone.  My family is in Budapest and I had to go as my cousin was very ill with cancer.  I was so on edge and panicky the whole time leading up to the travel and until I set foot off the plane.  I thought about him constantly because he was so good at navigating foreign countries and I was not.  It was one of the hardest things I did without him.  It also was a hurdle I had to jump on my own.  I missed him the entire time but was proud of myself for achieving something I didn't think I could.  

Sandi is always with you.  You will be okay.  The firsts are always the hardest.  I will be sending good vibes your way and a virtual hug.  Please keep us posted.


Comment by Ultra2015 on June 12, 2019 at 6:34am

Woke up this morning in a panic.  Don't know why, I slept ok most of the night.  But then this morning I was just overwhelmed.  I began reading some of the latest posts about traveling.  I am leaving next week for London to visit my son and his wife.  They are having a wonderful time living and working there and I am very excited to see them.  The problem is this will be the first trip I have taken without Sandi.  We had many travel plans, in the US on our Harley and abroad.  We made it to Ireland after I retired in 2010.  We did make several touring trips on the bike and trips to see the kids around the country.  But a major trip like this, alone is making me so very anxious.  Sandi was a packing planner.  She would have started weeks ago deciding what outfits to take, what the weather would be like and helping me with everything from my underwear to sweaters and such.  It is just such a lonely time, these weeks leading up to a trip that is so important to me and yet one that I dread because I have to go it alone.  No partner to share the joys of seeing the kids and their life, or to reminisce with upon our return.  I just miss her presence so much.  I am glad to hear how people are handling such situation here, it is very helpful.  As many of you say, no one but this group really understands how difficult it is to lose the love of your life and know that it is forever, and not the forever you were planning for.  Thank you all for listening.  


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