We can all understand the heartbreak others feel on losing their spouse, regardless of their age. We know that the youngest, still overcome by the overwhelming rush of new love, feel keenly cheated of all the years they might have had, and the oldest feel as every year was a journey which brought them even closer together, they feel as if they had become a single soul. Those of us widowed in mid-life can find ourselves awkwardly in between, uncertain where to turn, uncertain of how to go on. The choice to look for a new love can be especially traumatic in mid-life because we spent so many years in the worlds we created with our partners, and yet there are so many years left ahead. Some of us have still got it going on, and some of us may have gotten so “comfortable” in our marriages that we find ourselves unwilling to face the rejection we suspect we might find out in the dating world. Whatever your story is, and whatever your choice is, you can help others by sharing it here.
I, personally, am not interested in ever going through this again. It is just too painful. I am dating, and enjoying it, but not looking for another partner, Mike was my soul mate and that's where he will stay. It's been 2 1/2 years and I still have a lot of really bad days and miss him all of the time. I understand everyone feels differently but that's how I feel. I will date, but I doubt seriously if I find anyone who will be the partner Mike was. I'm not even planning on that.
If you don't mind my asking, how did you lose your husband Kathie? I've been wondering if those who went through long-term illness are more hesitant to get more seriously involved again.
No, my husband had a sudden massive heart attack. He had been in and out of the hospital for different things but no one expected it. His cardiologist was just in his heart, poking around to make sure it was okay about 2 months before and it was fine. It was diagnosed as a heart attack but the way he was acting that morning when I called 911, I'm thinking it might have been an embolism. Who knows, I'm just sad that he's not here anymore, and whatever they say it was will not bring him back :(
For me it's one of those things where I don't ever again want to be so close to someone that if they go away, it will ever hurt that bad. I lost my mom, my grandmother and my dad all within a year of each other (my mom had ALS and I took care of her until she died because she said she didn't want to die in a hospital, she was a nurse, she wanted to die at home) and dealing with that was easier than dealing with the death of my husband. My husband dying turned my world upside down and I never want to have that happen again. It's just me and my chicken s**t way of staying safe :)
My husband died suddenly too, and because I knew that what we had was special, I used to tell myself that if anything ever happened to him I would never date again. That was before I was staring 30 years alone in the face I guess.
:( I enjoy dating, but I make it clear that I'm not interested in a relationship. No one will ever take Mike's place. I just really still miss him a lot. I'm not the type to get close to people easily anyhow so this was an easy decision for me.
I hope you find another love though :)
My husband also died of a sudden, massive heart attack. The CPR, 911, the paramedics and the police swarming my home. Out on the stretcher and didn’t last 3 hours at the hospital. No warning. BAM. Had physical 6 weeks prior - no issues.
We were in our first year of retirement together. We had just started a new company and he had a book deal. We were retiring from our ‘careers’ but had BIG plans for our lives! We found a new home in NC just a month before.
I have nothing now..I have no direction, I have no friends, I have no hope.
I agree that we are kind of stuck in the middle. Although, I do find that dating at this age is WAY easier than when I was young. No games and I know what I want and more importantly I know what I don't want. I do enjoy dating but I really don't want to live with anyone again or even have someone that is super involved in my life. I think I am just too set in my ways. I have to admit that there are days when I am just plain tired and wish I had a man around to do some chores for me or even in the morning to just say, "you stay in bed, I will feed the horses". But, long term I think I just prefer to be by myself.
It will be two years in March. I miss the companionship of having a husband a lot. I know I will never replace my hubby. But I also know that I think there could be someone else at some point.I tried Match for a few months. What I seem to find is that men who are my age +/- 5 yrs want a younger woman. For now I am ok being by myself.
That is what I found too. Med in there 50's are looking fir someone 30 - 40. I can't decide if they think they are such an awesome catch, or want someone to look after them as they grow old.
What I have found is that men our age expect sex "the stupid TV 3rd date rule" . Other widows are telling me the same thing . People over 50 years old are have the highest rate of syphilis and gonorrhea than any other age group. If that is the best of men that is out there I will just stick with my pets
That sounds like a lot of reasons not to put yourself out there, right? If men are pressing you to give in by the 3rd date, they are obviously finding you an attractive prospect which might mean you are having to come up with reasons not to date because your heart really isn't in it. I'm guessing that you are just not ready, and that when you are, you'll tell yourself more hopeful stories. (PS- I am not suggesting you will ever follow the 3rd date rule. I wouldn't.)
I haven't dated since 1980. It is a whole different world out there. What I find odd, is that we are dating people our age, the same generation. We were brought up med be gentlemen & a woman be a lady. Guys hold the door open, treat women with respect. I find the divorced ones really bitter so I hope I meet someone who's spouse also died. Then they will actually get the concept of long term relationship, & that it is based on trust, & realizing you are to be there thru the good & bad