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Comment by Sonu on January 11, 2018 at 8:05pm

Mrs. Hehar, I am so sorry for your loss. I totally understand what you are going through. I too lost my beautiful husband to a motor vehicle accident 22 days ago. Whatever I do, however my life is,the fact is the love of my life will not be there. After 3 years of a loving relationship we had married on 29th April 2017. It was barely 8 monts of our marriage and I lost him. The same question arised .why us? I die to see him,to hear his voice,to touch him.my heart cries out for all of you. 

Comment by Mrs.Hehar on January 11, 2018 at 7:48pm

Its been 57 days, I still wake up in tears, throughout the day I feel the tears rolling down my cheeks. The days I am busy, my head kills, my body hurts. I still pray to god to give me my husband back, knowing that will never happen. I feel so alone, it hurts so much and ppl ask me how I am but I hate even answering that question. I miss him so much, and every morning when I wake up, I hate the fact that I am here and he isn't. The what ifs pop into my head all day long. Just a few seconds and he would have been here, even a second and that car wouldn't have hit him. I had to start his car and bike yesterday, it killed me inside, I ended up losing it for a good hour. The things I am having to do, I never even thought. Things should be so different. I still don't get why him? or why us? I want to talk to a medium so bad but then my mother in law keeps talking me out of it. I just want to talk to him, I know i wouldn't hear his voice but still. Have any of you tried a medium? How does it work or how do you know it is for real? I have been trying to read up on it and can't find much about what they tell you or how do you know it pertains to you and not general things. 

Comment by KayeL on December 31, 2017 at 10:36am

Mrs. Hehar,

I hear you and I know what you mean. My husband was sick for the entire Dec two years ago but his medical team was very optimistic about his recovery. We left hospital on new year's eve but then his pneumonia got worse that it took his life few days after the new year. I am telling you, xmas and new year are now the worst time of the year to me. While everyone, esp people our age, most of them are so happy with their lives, I am, and many of us here, are drowned by some painful memories. For two years, some of my older friends who are in their 50s, my in-laws and my parents have been talking about "companion" again. Sigh, I don't get out of the house, I have a kid, and I am not young anymore, how to "meet" someone? Besides, when the love I used to have was so perfect, I don't even have the will to find anyone. Their good intension only makes me even more depressed. It's like, I found my soul mate and true love but he vanished. And I feel I am such a bad mom because I keep telling my son I will no longer want to celebrate any holidays in this household again. He keeps telling me he wants his daddy. I said dad is gone. He insists he wants a dad even though he could be someone else. Argghh,,. I don't even know how and what I want, or need. All I know is I only want my dead husband back. OOh I so wish this new year thing is done and over wish. Dragging through xmas was bad enough and now new year then his death anniversary. I loathe this life. 

Comment by Mrs.Hehar on December 31, 2017 at 10:10am

Its new years eve... and although I didn't expect it to be the worst feeling ever, thats how I feel right now. I got home from service and as soon as I entered our bedroom I broke out into tears. On the drive back I happened to open facebook and saw all those generic Happy New Years pics or quotes, I feel incredibly sad and so much pain. I miss my husband so much, it kills me inside just thinking about it. I cant believe its already been 46days. I still pray to have him back, I still pray that god reunite us. I dono what to do anymore. I try to cope and use different techniques but then I just break. My in laws try to keep me busy, I put on a face of being okay in front of them but I'm not okay and I don't know when I will be. Few days ago his mom talked to me about thinking about the future, and how everyone needs a companion, it made me so sad to think about something like that. I feel like no one understands me, I don't understand me. I just wish I could talk to him, its like I feel so alone all the time even though I'm not actually alone. 

Comment by KayeL on December 26, 2017 at 8:38pm

Judie,


You're not alone. My hubby died last year but right at the beginning of January. It will be two years for me in a week-ish time and I am still not myself. I used to be so optimistic, happy and goofy yet I am now pessimistic, morose, and cold. Devoid of emotion but sadness, anger and agony. I still consistently cry like there's no tomorrow. I still feel bleak, betrayed, and lost. I think my parents, too, think it's time I should be back to my old self again. Seriously, HOW? My heart has been shattered completely. I will never be that old happy self again. True, in time, maybe I will be less angry, but pure bliss? I highly doubt it. I met my hubby young at age 21, were so in love throughout our 20s to my mid 30s. He died when he was 40 and me turning 35. That intense pain lingers and does not want to go away. 

Comment by Judie on December 26, 2017 at 8:16pm

Hi all I’m judie I joined this site last year when my husban died. It still feels like it happened yesterday, Nothing changed, I get told by people that I am grieving too hard, holding on to the past. I’d like to think that I’m coming to a place of peace ..but I still have days of ugly cries.  I have moments of tears leaking down my face while I’m almost unaware of it. I have days where the pain is still so intense I can’t breathe. I can’t believe it’s been a year.


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Comment by Soaring Spirits on December 25, 2017 at 7:22am

We're hanging out in the WV chat room for anyone who finds themselves alone on Christmas day. Join us!

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Comment by Mrs.Hehar on December 19, 2017 at 9:11am

Hi Debbie, It feels so much more difficult as the days go on, I find that my eyes are always full of tears. I had a dream that I was hugging him and telling him not to go to work, felt so real, like it was that same morning. I woke up in tears because there were many times I would ask him not to go to work, but I knew he had to. I wish my dream was reality and I could have stopped him that day. It just feels so unfair that this happened to him. I'd switch places with him in a heartbeat, a second, not even a second; he had so many wishes and hopes, motivation to accomplish so much in his life. I don't understand life anymore, or what the point is, or why things happen to certain people. I just don't get it. I feel so damn sad and upset inside. I'm not sure if it will ever get better. And the people that tell me, you have to think about your future, you're so young, I know what they are getting at, but I can't even begin to think that I will just go on without him. He was really my everything, it was all about him, that is all I did day and night. I don't work or have any hobbies since I moved here, it was all about Jimmy, always seeing him off to work, or waiting for him to come home, calling and texting him throughout the day, having dinner ready, doing things together, I breathed Jimmy, and since he has left I feel like I don't know what to do anymore. My days are filled with paperwork and looking for answers online. This blog, that blog, reading into dreams I have. And friends and family who have not lost their soulmates think I should try to keep my mind busy, but its not that easy. No matter what I do, I think of him or what we would be doing or what he would think. I hate this. 

Comment by JessicaAnn on December 17, 2017 at 8:29pm

Hi Debbie. Thank you I will have to look up that song. I'm sorry for your loss as well. Not really sure how the chat rooms work yet so I just posted a comment :). 

Comment by BabushkaD (Debbie) on December 17, 2017 at 7:41pm

Mrs. Hehar, 

I didn't mean to miss your post! It's okay to cry when people are looking. If there's ever a time to be a mess sometimes, this is it.  I am so sorry you lost your love. We are all too young for this, and it can hurt so much when others are talking about their 20, 30, 40 years with their great loves and we got 1, 2, 5, or didn't even make it to the wedding. Keep coming back and keep talking here. You will find your way. 

 

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