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Long-term illness

For those widowed by cancer AND other illnesses or long term conditions that required caregiving.

We now also have a "Long Term Illness" discussion forum in the PERENNIAL main forum. Questions? Widville@gmail.com

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I'm Lost

Started by MickeysLove. Last reply by Steve yesterday. 16 Replies

So, 4 days ago marked the 2 month period.  I had joined a support "group" where you go and sit with other people and talk about whats bothering you. I had went 2 times, I'm not going anymore - I…Continue

Grief and release at the same time?

Started by Germaine. Last reply by Vettegirl Oct 18. 29 Replies

I am aware of two different forces acting from within me.  One is the downward weight of grief. The other is an upward energy that comes from the release from caregiving.  After 16 years of part time…Continue

Looking to Put Together Resources for soon-to-be-widowed

Started by Mozzie. Last reply by ebwilkie Oct 16. 31 Replies

I found being the spouse of a terminal person very frustrating.  We were getting care at a prominent hospital, and there were social workers, but I didn't feel like anyone ever gave me useful…Continue

Anyone ever have a sense of peace?

Started by Timetoheal. Last reply by Juls Sep 17. 38 Replies

Has anyone been doing normal chores or random things around the house and had a feeling of calm or peace come over them? As if your loved one is standing there with you or just brushing by you to let…Continue

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Comment by icecream on October 5, 2014 at 8:48pm

foreverandever, hang in there. It really sounds like you had a wonderful day and tribute to your husband surrounded by people who love you. I am about 2 and 1/2 years out and I also thought that once I was past the one year mark it would get easier. For me, it didn't work that way. Year 2 was especially hard - because reality had truly set in - we had gone through everything once - and this was now the new norm - like it or not. Things are getting much better now, but sometimes the grief takes over - from a song on the radio, or a favorite food, or a daughter's volleyball game he will never see. Hugs to you and all of us. 

Comment by Foreverandever on October 5, 2014 at 8:29pm
Last Saturday marked the one year anniversary of my beloved husband. The days leading up to it were terrible. It felt like I was reliving the days that ultimately led to his death. Luckily I had people I could vent with, and the day before I balled my eyes out talking about how much I missed him and how he will never be forgotten with two of my best friends. The actual day of his anniversary we went out to his grave site, prayed a rosary on his behalf, then did a balloon release. It was beautiful...there were about 40 out of us there. Afterwards, most of us went to a mass in his honor and then my family came over to our home and we hung out the way we used to when my husband was here. It was a bitter sweet feeling...glad the one year was over and then it hit me. He is never coming back, and despite how hard I try to recreate moments or keep things as the were before; he will never come back to me. When everyone left I felt emotionally exhausted. I know deep down that I shouldn't dwell on the things that I cannot change, but I can't stop dwelling on how my 3 year old will not have her daddy around to experience things with her. He would have been the greatest daddy in the world, just like he was the greatest husband in my eyes! I've had a lot of ups and downs this last week. Somehow, I had imagined that after the one year anniversary things would automatically get better.
Comment by MFARM on September 20, 2014 at 9:47am

Maggie, I'm so sorry. I too couldn't fill my husband's place and I usually don't go with other couples. I do have another widow to bounce things off of and we do things together, or at least talk on the phone. Fortunately I have six children, four inlaws, 13 grandchildren, and 4 great grandchildren.None live in my town, closest 50 miles away, so I spend a lot of time seeing  one of them or the other. I still keep pretty busy in between. I drive  a couple out to eat 30 miles from here about once a week. It's actually my husband's nephew. She has some mental confusion, but does well with me. I seem to be the only person who's name she can remember. He always pays for the lunch and is glad to have some one to talk to.  He is 82 and was very close to my husband, they worked together for a time and played together a lot as children, so I get a lot of affectionate  stories. Some I've heard several times, but that's okay. My son-in-law stayed last night on his way through and we had good conversation. None of this fills the spot of the one who is missing, but  I'm still doing better than I expected right after he died June 22, 2012. 

Comment by Maggie on September 20, 2014 at 9:17am
I'm on a trip right now with my Brother and SIL, but it's not the same. They go back to their room together and me to mine alone. I feel so lonely and I'm even home sick. I'd rather travel with a female friend at least I wouldn't feel like the odd number. my Roses, how wonderful! A week of some happiness and contentment. Nothing beats sharing your life with someone special, but I fear it will never be in the cards for me...too old, too tired and love and miss my husband too much.
Comment by my roses on September 20, 2014 at 3:01am

My roses

just been looking at the posts have not been on for a while.  So many other things happening in my life.  Still been struggling with financial stuff, and the grief was really pulling me down.  Have been on 2 dating websites, and also having a friendship with someone Wes and I knew for many years but only has a business friend.  That was good in some ways, but the sex issue raised its head and I was not able to cope with that during these last months.  The friendship was good in some ways, and very sad in others.  This last week I had a week with another male friend who was very kind and we gave each other lots of hugs, and held hands when we walked.  Went out to lovely dinners, a french film, walks in the forest,  a botanic park with masses of tulips etc.  We talked about our grief and our beloveds and it was good.There was kindness and  some happiness and it was beneficial to our health, as we both looked better - our  widowed faces looked less - particularly in the eyes.

That's what one week of happiness can do... I still miss Wes so much but as we know we can love 2 people at the same time.  We are both just keeping in touch - just going slowly.  It was amazing as he flew to see me from another State...  Bless you all... keep posting....Sending you much love

Comment by Dave55 on September 18, 2014 at 8:33pm
I found a blog and bookwriter called Solo Traveler at http://solotravelerblog.com/
It written by Janice Waugh who is also a widow and started traveling after her husbands passing. I found lots of good info although I haven't set the sails yet, unless you count next weeks camp widow.
Comment by Maggie on September 18, 2014 at 10:34am
Germaine...I'm in Asheville and I was just googling and found a website for seniors...small groups, pretty much all inclusive...called Globe treks...out of Hendersonville NC. I'd tried to put the link here, but seem not to be able to get that to work..will try later. I do know Road Scholar is a good tour company for all over and they seem to be more adults and focus on education and learning, lectures and the like...gotta get myself to start doing this stuff alone if I have to. Don't want to be on my deathbed someday wishing I had. But it's hard to start in this new life alone after so many years of having that support and care of our spouses. When I'm up, I feel like yeah I can do this, but when I'm down I feel like oh why bother, I'll just be lonely and no one to share the experience with...today I'm up and two days ago I was real down...wish I could just stay up! I thought I'd start out small and go to a bigger nearby city for 3 or 4 days to see the sites, museums, galleries, gardens etc. my closest bigger city would be Charlotte NC. Anyone familiar with Charlotte?
Comment by Germaine on September 18, 2014 at 9:20am

Good for you, suepernova,  If you land in Myrtle Beach or Asheville let me know. I am near travel parks in both places (different times of the year)

As far as having been "to hell and back" ….I agree…except it isn't really "back" is it?  Its back on earth instead of hell but it is a whole new place ….not anywhere we have ever been before….hence the need to take one step at a time, carefully, on this new terrain (once we are able to walk again). All good wishes to those of you just beginning the journey.  I am periodically overwhelmed but then I realize I have tried to take several steps at a time instead of only one. When I slow down and breathe I do better.  Travel groups sound like an interesting idea.  Anyone tried one?

Comment by Maggie on September 18, 2014 at 8:25am
Supernova...you are so right about older couples. One of the couples will surely be like us...just farther down the road. I watched my Mom and my MIL suffer with grief and loneliness before I really had a clue to what it was like. Only now, can I know there feelings. I envy your free spirit to get out there and travel. I feel too old for it now. (67). I know, it's never too late, but I need a place to call home, but I sure would be willing to travel along with friends. My closest friend has a cat and I don't think they travel like dogs. I'd like to know more about the travel groups...I'll have to check it out.
Comment by sueprnova on September 18, 2014 at 8:15am

I am putting my house on the market spring 2015 - when it sells, along with almost everything else I own... I will be buying a new SUV and a trailer.  I love to travel and the dogs and I will embark on a new adventure.  

There are plenty of womens rv traveling groups to get involved with. 

It's never too late to have an adventure.

I can't ever begrudge the older couples. or any couple for that matter.  Sooner or later, they will be one of us.  So I hope they enjoy their life together.  

Gym time...

Peace~ Sue


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