I saw your post. I have never used the discussion function before, but thought I would give it a try. Four months is a very short time. I know....everyone else thinks you should be better after 3 months or so, but most of us aren't.
I lost my first husband when he was 52, and my 2nd when he was 64. Many, many years apart (I was 20 years younger than my first husband). It was oh so hard, and I only managed to survive because I threw myself into my job.
Sending hugs, and hope this kicks off a discussion.
Thank you for your words of encouragement. The whole situation seems surreal. I thought I would bounce back to whatever normal would be by now, but I haven’t. Unless this is my new normal. I pray it isn’t. Knowing that there are groups like this one makes it easier to at least understand that it’s going to take time. I just wish I knew how much, but that is one of those questions that doesn’t seem to have an easy answer. So day by day I guess. Thank you again.