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Oh shoot, I wanted to add something Shelly. I have a step-daughter as well who was her dad's baby. I've taken a backseat from the beginning and kept in mind that he loves me different but loves me none the less. That being said, she had him for 34 yrs and I only had him for 5. As much as I hate to admit it, she knew him better than I. I defer to her for about everything referring to her dad. In turn, she does to me. I'm not saying feelings haven't been a bit hurt on each side....after all, we are both hyper-sensitive right now. I was pretty lucky in that, she realized her life was centered around her family and mine was centered around her daddy. Therefore, I have a whole different kind of ache. Somehow, that in and of its self-has made me feel better.If it's your wish to retain a relationship with your step-daughter I hope you'll be able to hash things out. It's not worth having hard feelings on top of mourning your loss. Hang in there.
Shelly best of luck and hopefully it will turn out to be an event you actually enjoy, maybe you'll hear stories you haven't heard before.Laurajay, you said what I was thinking so I won't reword your comment, you said that way better than I could have!
Frank & Laurajay, Thank you for you comments. Yes, I know I have to go and be pleasant. I'm just not ready to celebrate his life when I'm still begging him to come back. The "So what?" comment, I've used that myself when emailing friends about this. The bottom line is that it is what it is and I have to deal with it in John's honor. I appreciate your advice and support.
Shelley. playing the devil's advocate since I am hoping some necessary comments might toughen you to the reality of the situation you will be facing. First of all, I was a daddy's girl-the first man I loved who loved me. My daughter was also a daddy's girl with a special bond between them. If you realize he(your husband) was hers(stepdaughter) before he became yours so to speak and nothing can change that. In the five yrs here reading posts of the before and after death relationships the vast majority of folks have posted that had rough times with "step" relationships some very hurtful some nearly vicious and a lot of what happened was unexpected. You kinda have a choice of role playing. You can attend the memorial of the man you so loved and be a gracious widow to honor him and the memories you made with him or you can play the role of the angry, wicked step-mother who sulks and resents what is happening (the memorial). Try to realize it's only a few hours of being pleasant to family and friends- people who also cared for him even if they are clueless of your true relationship with him and how deeply you are hurting. Most don't care. If given the opportunity to speak just speak of the qualities you loved about him and acknowledge the gratitude you have that others cared about him,too. His daughter lost her beloved father. She is hurting and has chosen to lash out at you for her own reasons. You be the adult! Let her have her memorial. Don't argue or debate as it will only bring on stress and more ill feelings for you. Smile. Be cordial. Walk away from confrontation if it comes. If told what you should do now or in the future just state you have several things/ideas you are considering. Don't try to explain. Of course it may be uncomfortable or awkward. So what? The time will fly by...just imagine the people there thinking how well you are doing and how your kindness and friendliness make it easy to understand why he chose YOU for a partner. Imagine him there watching you. Take love with you and leave hurt angry feelings at home. We are never ready for these occasions. Just go with the flow and tell yourself "This too shall pass" because it will. I believe you can and will be fine. Hugs and prayers... lj
Celebrations of life overall are wonderful things that help family and friends to just what is says..
Celebrate the life of... For those of us that have just gone through that loss it can be both terrible and wrenching or, if you can, it can be a celebration of our love and commitment.
Your mind is filled with inspirational times and moments with your husband. During these celebrations everyone has a say and comments, and all are almost always humorous or poke good natured fun at some event. If you can, try and stay away from the pain of loss, stick with good memories, and join in the celebration of your husbands life and in particular with you, as you remember to family some of these moments with family.
My husband's daughter and I had a falling out after John died. She had endured many of her dad's relationships/girlfriends over the years, before John and I were together. And it was important to her to be the most important woman in John's life. That was fine with me. But in the weeks after John died, she really crossed many boundaries and hurt my feelings/made me angry. So now she has organized a "Celebration of Life" event. And of course I must attend but am not looking forward to it. I'm just not ready. Any advice on getting through it with the best possible attitude? Thanks
Mrs Hehar, I'm so sorry that happened to you. I can see how that would cause a panic attack.Shelly, I know how you feel with the sheets. Jerry died at home, on his favorite flannel sheets in our bed. I took them off and washed them all except his pillowcase. It still smells like him and is shoved into a big ziplock bag. I will never wash that pillowcase. Jerry always helped me with our bed too, so it's weird to do it alone. I had the last shirt he wore and it was such a pleasure to bury my face in it...then his dog found it (I left in it on his chair) and drug it off and proceeded to sleep on it for several days until I found it again. Needless to say, it smelled of dog when I got it back. I was really annoyed.
Well, I finally changed the sheets. It was really hard. Most times we changed the sheets together. He would volunteer to tuck the fitted sheet in the farthest away corner and I would thank him. He would complain about all the dog hair on the bed and I would change the subject. Now I have clean sheets but no smell of his sunscreen on the pillows, no lint from his wool socks in the bed, only memories of us changing the sheets together, and memories of snuggling with him every night in those sheets.
Mrs.Hehar, I love your 'fking'. I'm pretty straight, proper, and my husband would use the 'fking' word and I loved it. My husband died suddenly and unexpectedly on 11/10/17. I can feel my heart race whenever I drive by the hospital, I try not to. I am also familiar with the cry/scream feeling. The 'going crazy' feeling. Absofkinglutely, as my husband would say.
I'm so sorry, Mrs.Hehar. That must have been awful. It's normal to be so sad and afraid you think you're going crazy. I feel like that right now. It is fresh and new for us, and I hate it. I want my old life back. Somehow, we'll be okay. My love and prayers are with you.
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