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Comment by LandL (Linda) 8 hours ago

I'm glad for you, Julep.  I've had some very traumatic events happen in my life in the last 4 years. One of them is going on right now.  My husband was the rock who would have gotten me through, but I'm dealing with them all alone. Of course we all need to try to be happy, but for some of us we have to get through some obstacles that make it difficult.  I wish you the best, and hope to be where you are at some point.

Comment by julep67 10 hours ago

It's nice to see folks posting but I'm sorry that so many of you are still struggling.  On August 16, it was four years since my husband Mark died.  For the first time, I went to work on the day and didn't do anything to really mark the day (except for a post on Instagram).  I had a couple of wobbles at my desk in the morning and by the end of the day I felt worn out but I was proud of myself for getting through the day without having to hide away from everyone. 

While I still think of him every day and obviously miss him, I've made my peace with the fact that he's gone.  I'm honouring his life by remembering him and finding joy wherever I can.  As we all know, life is way too short to not at least try to be happy.

The past four years have been challenging at times but  I've actually had a good year this year. Finally, I've able to release the guilt I used to feel about being happy and having experiences without him.  Knowing how he loved me and the kind of person he was, I think he'd like to see me like this. 

I'm making plans again, am starting a new job soon (a promotion) and am truly happy with how my life is going for the first time in a long time. Grief changed me in ways I couldn't have imagined. The me I was on the day he died wouldn't recognize this version of me but that's okay.

Comment by LandL (Linda) 11 hours ago

I haven't posted here, but not because I've moved on.  After 4.5 years I still suffer crippling anxiety.  Nothing helps.  I still miss my husband so much, and so many things remind me of our happy years.   We met when I was 16 and I was 64 when he died.  Married 45 years.  I'd never lived alone before.  He died very suddenly on an ordinary Tuesday evening.  In an instant my world was shattered.  I am a completely different woman, and don't know where I belong.  

Comment by mixelated yesterday

I'm still here, glad to know how others have been doing. I'm managing. Last year I was doing ok physically after struggling, but this year I've been diagnosed with an autoimmune condition and am trying to learn to cope with it. My mood starts to dip towards the end of the year. The back-to-school activities all around remind me of our happy young family years, now gone, and the holidays coming up, which is when my husband passed. 

Comment by without yesterday

Thanks for your reply Mary H. I agree, as more time passes I feel like I am the only one who carries him inside me. I feel like when I talk about him or my grief to people, they think I'm doing it for attention or pity. All I want is to be able to talk about him. He matters. I feel like everyone is moving on, and I am left alone in a stagnant world. His brother got married and had a child, I know his mother grieves a lot, but the new grandchild is a big light for her. I'm not against that or anything. Its just that I was widowed at 29, with no children. Its very hard to find a reason to keep going that way. I am a lot less hopeless as I was, but I still don't see any purpose in this new life. But its definitely a lot less dark, than it was.

Comment by TFH2015 yesterday

At 4 years, 6 months and 10 days (not that I’m counting) I find my health is really affected compared to the early days.  The last 7 months have been spent having cardiac tests, sleep studies etc.  Turns out my heart is great, other than a little broken still.  I did discover though that I have sleep apnea.  The specialist during the exam asked me if I snore.  I said how would l know, there is no one with me to hear it.  I have spent much of the time since 2015 wishing I could be with my wife but facing the possibility of heart problems, I learned that I don’t want to go anywhere yet.  Mary H, we had many messages back and forth in our early days.  Back then I was known as Terry on here but for some reason after not being on here for a long time it didn’t recognize me and I had to change my user name hence the TFH2015.  It would be great to see 2015 more active.  Although I am confident that many may have moved on and no longer feel the need, I’m pretty sure that there are still quite a few of us that miss the connection that got us through the first hours, days, weeks, months and years.  Yay for those of us who are still checking in once in a while.

Comment by Mary H yesterday

My health deteriorated massively at first as well, the trauma just nearly kills us, doesn't it?  But I have been turning things around just lately, did 23andMe and then StrateGene for personal health recommendations, and then Intermittent Fasting.  I feel a lot better.  I don't really feel as if I have that much i want to live for either, my kids are growing up to independence as well and I think kids that lose a parent, they are more independent of the remaining parent than otherwise, and then, my life is not as it was going to be, I really liked where I was, and not so much anymore.  But I'm still here, so I figure I may as well make the most of it.  Which, considering I just wanted to die too for the longest time, it's good progress for me.  I hope that you will find some closeness to your lost loved ones on your four year days without and Charlotteelse, our thoughts are with you.

Comment by Charlotteelsie yesterday

Hi Thanks for your posts. Its four years for me on Friday. Feels like forty. Cant stop crying last few days. My daughters off for second year of college Sunday. Life seems pointless. Im really struggling with empty nest even after one year of her away. And can find little purpose for life. Its very scarey. My heAlth has deteriorated massive ly in last four years as well. 

I cling to daily small things and friends.

Best wishes

Comment by Mary H yesterday

I understand why you posted this without.  They lived, and they were so important to us, and its like we have one foot in two worlds, our together world, and this after world.  My youngest hardly remembers anything about her Dad.  Just being told he'd died and going back to sleep sure she would wake up and it wouldn't be true.  She's a teenager now, and has started assuming some teenager-y anti establishment things about him, and I have had to tell her what a great man he was and that she ought to be proud he was her dad.  It's so, so strange.  I remember everything.  Every moment, it feels like, sometimes.  He was so present in the world, and now, mostly just in me.

Comment by without yesterday

Tomorrow will be 4 years. I didn't take time of work this year, the first time that I left it open like this. I think I will take a sick day tomorrow. Its definitely not as bad as it was the last 3 years. Its kind of strange that way, a part of me feels guilty for it. As the day goes on I feel more and more sick. I'm also dealing with family issues and working overtime, which is not helpful. I don't even know the point of this post, just wanted to say something.

 

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