Hi All - I just came back from visiting my family and my wife’s family for Easter. While it was nice to see everyone, other than me, no one talked about my wife. Yet when she was alive she was always the central player in all of their lives. So I got to thinking - do I feel alone on this earth or do I feel lonely? The answer was clear to me - I feel alone without my wife. If I were lonely then seeing the family would have cheered me up. But even in the midst of all of these people, I felt alone.
The specialness my wife brought to me is missing. All of the personal things are gone. All I have left are the thoughts. I have said before that I am more than sad - I am sorrowful. And so lonely is how I feel and how I will probably feel until it is my turn. I love her and miss her so much!
As a 39yo widow, I feel both alone and lonely. People I know, around my age, are busy with their young families or working hard to build their careers. No one has time for me. That part, I am lonely. When my husband died, I lost literally the only reliable friend I have.
And having no family or close friends here, they live overseas; I am alone. And the fact I put a halt to my career because I have a toddler to raise, no job or social life, I am a total lone reed. Begin an introvert obviously doesn't help.