It's been a while since I've been on here. My husband died July 2016. I'm still hurting bad, especially at night time . I'd love to be asleep right now , but it's so painful just getting ready for bed and then sliding into my bed is just awful . Once I force myself in the bed , I just lay here and it all floods back into my brain. I'm alone. He's gone. He's never coming back. Then I start thinking about it all and can't stop. Next thing I know its midnight and I'm still awake and miserable. Sleep is a relief from the pain, but its real hard to let go and fall asleep. I do take sleeping pills but a lot of times , my pain is more powerful than the pills and I can't sleep. Does anyone else have trouble with their grief being stronger at night?