It's been a while since I've been on here. My husband died July 2016. I'm still hurting bad, especially at night time . I'd love to be asleep right now , but it's so painful just getting ready for bed and then sliding into my bed is just awful . Once I force myself in the bed , I just lay here and it all floods back into my brain. I'm alone. He's gone. He's never coming back. Then I start thinking about it all and can't stop. Next thing I know its midnight and I'm still awake and miserable. Sleep is a relief from the pain, but its real hard to let go and fall asleep. I do take sleeping pills but a lot of times , my pain is more powerful than the pills and I can't sleep. Does anyone else have trouble with their grief being stronger at night?
susan, Yes! It's wonderful to hold my grandson. I love it when he lays his head on my shoulder and I can hug him tight. I hug him and always think about Mike. I was thinking that no one holds me like that anymore. I really miss it.
I love the picture! Cute overalls. ;-) I bought Summit a pair. He might be big enough to wear them next year.
Sometimes I Crave to be held. Just human contact. It sure helps to know that there are others who feel like I do
Tomorrow the church I go to is holding a Mass for all of those who passed away last year. Linda, The lady who organizes this every year told me that there is a candle with Paul's name on it. So I'll be there tomorrow.
In the meantime, I'm still sleeping with my phone, radio, iPad, pillows etc. around me. I guess I'm a material girl. Does anyone else do this? Or am I a little on the strange side?