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Suddenly Widowed

For those widowed suddenly or unexpectedly by any cause. 

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Heard on old tv show.

Started by jlsrdh. Last reply by Solsticeowl Mar 26. 4 Replies

Since Tom died, I watch a lot of tv. It’s noise in a very silent house. I have on the DVR numerous shows, new and old. One of the old shows is Murder, She Wrote.If your remember the show, and I do,…Continue

The Shock Has Worn Off

Started by GrievingandLost37. Last reply by KJPE Mar 25. 10 Replies

The shock of losing my husband has slowly worn off.  I am left with the reality that he is never coming home.  I will never hear his voice again.  He will never walk in the door of our home.  While…Continue

How can the sun still shine?

Started by Solsticeowl. Last reply by Solsticeowl Mar 23. 9 Replies

I lost my husband on 2/22/19.  We had only been married 3 years and together almost 7, but it felt like we lived 20 years - happily - in that time.  The number of near misses of almost meeting is…Continue

He deserved so much more love

Started by KJPE. Last reply by DIVA70 Mar 21. 8 Replies

At least once a day, I feel intensely frustrated & sad because my husband was exceptionally wonderful to me, and I keep wanting to give him more love and cannot believe that I can't any more. …Continue

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Comment by Mike on April 17, 2018 at 6:10am

Shelley,

Everyone here wants to help and there is some good advice. But your therapist probably knows you better than we do. At least give some consideration to what your therapist says.  Maybe he/she can offer you some ways to work through it. Yes we all move at our own pace and I’m sure your therapist knows that too. You are going there for a reason so I would recommend listening to what they say. 

Comment by SweetMelissa2007 on April 17, 2018 at 5:44am

Shelley,

In your time, you will break the glass ceiling on survivor's guilt. Its not something you can just let go off - it takes lots of work to rebuild your self confidence. The shoulda, coulda, woulda guilts are part of rebuilding - they challenge your strength,  worthiness of life & love of yourself. Therapists are textbook & work experience educated - grief w/the living is one of the least studied areas. Most all books have been written by those who have experienced it rather then based on clinical studies ...

Elizabeth Kubler-Ross wrote in 1969 the groundbreaking 5-stages of grief in her book "On Death and Dying" based on studies of the terminally ill patients. These 5 -stages closely resemble those of the widowed. Her book might provide you w/a better understanding of what you're going through. They can also be found on the internet. Its not mentioned how any patient got through any of the stages to accept death - it was not part of the study.  How you choose to heal is up to you ...

Blessings ...

Comment by Maggie on April 17, 2018 at 3:54am

Shelley...I had many guilt issues. My husband and I were happily married for most of the 30 yrs, but after his retirement things changed. I won't go into detail but he became depressed and felt no sense of purpose and it changed him. So we argued more and I will admit to escalating it at times because he said hurtful things and it made me mad. Anyway fast forward to a brain cancer diagnosis and death 11 yrs after retirement. He was in a nursing home the last 6 weeks of his life and he wanted to be home, but I was alone (no children or family) and could not do it by myself. He was bedridden and in diapers. Then to top it off, I had gone home from my daily visits and he passed away after I left. So talk about guilt!

But 5 years later I have come to terms with all this. He could be mean verbally and I had a right to speak up for myself. I couldn't handle him at home and if I had tried...well I don't know the answer to that. And I couldn't know that he would die when I had already gone home for the evening like I did everyday. It wasn't imminent. 

It takes mostly time and clearer thinking that will come. We are all only flawed humans and make mistakes in judgement. He did too I tell myself. Neither if us were perfect although I consider that I had a good marriage and I loved him, still miss him and want no other man. 

Dont try to rush the quilt away. All of this grief and guilt will go away or lessen on its own time table and it's different for everyone and people who have not gone through this cannot understand something they've never experienced. Just give yourself time and don't worry if you feel a lot of guilt. I promise you it will lessen. You will see the bigger picture in time. And most of all don't feel guilty if you're still feeling guilty. Don't worry with it...just let it happen and time will be your friend.

Comment by Tess on April 17, 2018 at 2:58am

Tjtango, I know that feeling as well. After 19 months, I think no one expects that I am going to have a meltdown and feel the depth of my loss as much as I still do. Once in a while, it would be nice to have someone call to say Hi and how are you doing? with no other expectation. Now that texting is an option, I feel like it takes little effort to send a text saying the same. ((Hugs from afar))

Comment by Tess on April 17, 2018 at 2:55am

Sometimes I just hate technology. Shelley, I had an entire reply prepared. I needed to edit and couldn't find the feature to do that, just the x in the corner, which deleted my post. Anyway, I feel it's easy for a therapist to tell you to reprogram your brain, it's just not so easy to do. I tend to have feelings of guilt, not so much concerning my husband's death, but decisions I made in the past, that live on and on. If you find a trick to ceasing this behavior, let me know too! Peace and hugs to you.

Comment by Mike on April 17, 2018 at 2:18am

Shelley,

I think you should listen you therapist. After a while it’s important to let these things go.  

Comment by shelley on April 16, 2018 at 10:27pm

My therapist told me today that she thinks my thoughts of guilt (what I said, didn't say, what I did, didn't do in the weeks before my husband's death) are becoming obsessive.  If I had known that my husband was going to die, I wouldn't have ....  If I had known that my husband was going to die, I would have said ...  I have a running dialogue with myself about these things that I would do differently if I'd known my husband was going to die.  I thought that this guilt was just part of my grief.  But my therapist says no.  I dealt pretty well with the 'what if's'.  And that was a huge accomplishment.  My therapist says it's time to 'reprogram my brain', to stop automatically heading toward guilt, that this rut I'm creating will not help me grieve.  Any thoughts/suggestions?

Comment by shelley on April 16, 2018 at 7:27pm

Tjtango, Yes, Yes, Yes.  Know exactly what you mean.  

Comment by Tjtango on April 16, 2018 at 7:22pm

 I remember watching an episode of greys anatomy where one of the characters had just lost their mother and was being held and comforted while she cried.  I just started crying, staring at the tv, , thinking that not once since my husband passed have I been held like that and allowed to cry on someone’s shoulder.  It gets so tiring having to be the strong one all the time, when you just want to collapse into your husbands arms and have him tell you everything is going to be okay. Only now his absence is the very reason things are not.   

Comment by Cha Cha on April 16, 2018 at 1:56pm

Hello, wanted to stop by and introduce myself, I'm Charlene. Glad to have found this site even though it has been 5 yrs since my husband died I find relief in finally finding others who can understand the widowhood journey. 

 

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