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Comment by Destroyed on April 23, 2013 at 12:53am

Know exactly how you feel Jenny and MrsD, half the time I wake in the middle of the night feeling as though I'm trapped in a black hole that I can't escape from (and it's really frightening), the other half of the time I just want to run away and find a black hole to bury myself in, so I don't have to do this any more. It's 10 months for me on Friday and really 10 is worse than 9, just like 9 was worse than 8. At this stage the passing of time still just means that I'm that much closer to being with my Love again, can't see when this rotten life is ever going to get better.

Hugs to you all, hope your day is peaceful.

Karen 

Comment by alwayshopeful (Jocelyn) on April 23, 2013 at 12:17am

Karla Dornacher's Caring Thought for today.

"Life's daily difficulties can pile up until it's hard to breathe under their weight.

Take a minute today to reflect on life's daily blessings and rejoice in all that we are given!"

I know we have all lost so much, but if I focus on everyone I still have, I am able to find some comfort...

Love and hugs to all!

Jocelyn~

 

Comment by MrsD on April 22, 2013 at 9:05pm

Jenny I feel the same way. I want to run away from all of this, but there's nowhere to go where the pain won't follow me, nowhere where I can find him.

Comment by Su on April 22, 2013 at 8:40pm

Pretty bad when  you only have a high school education, but you understand the monitors on tv in a hospital room. Tears

Comment by Su on April 22, 2013 at 7:05pm

The sunshine today has really helped.

Comment by Jenny on April 22, 2013 at 6:01pm

To add to my earlier post. I have the feeling I described, but then I realize of course that there's nowhere I can go, no journey, no matter the length or difficulty that could get me to where he is and then I just feel overwhelming sadness.

Comment by Jenny on April 22, 2013 at 2:44pm

Sometimes I have this strong feeling of wanting to find him. It makes me want to pack up my backpack, strap on my hiking boots and head out. I would gladly undertake the toughest of journeys to see him again, as a matter of fact I feel like I want to, like I crave the physical challenge of such a journey. Like if only I could endure enough hardship I would somehow be able to reach him. I guess maybe my body wants to manifest the way I'm feeling internally.

Comment by Dusty on April 22, 2013 at 5:58am

I so hope that my love is here to help me,,,I need it so desperately

Comment by adrift on April 22, 2013 at 2:45am

MrsD. OMG. Really, do they not get it ??? NO they don't. Who appoints these people to lead these groups?? It is sure not on personal experience. Must just be on degree they hold !! Lots of us have degrees but ard they in the field of grief management No and No. Please Lord help me and all those that mean well but haven't even have a hint of a clue. Peace to All. Jan

Comment by Suz on April 21, 2013 at 6:08pm

Jocelyn, When I was in my med center group, I remember looking at the leader and thinking that I could run it better. Then I thought I was just being arrogant. I am a child therapist and I do think I could do better than she did. She was so "trite." 

Karen, I am really glad you ddi it your way. That is the best we can do. 

MFarm, I am headed back to Minnesota tomorrow (in Arizona visiting in-laws). I am so sorry you fell! It is such a horrible jarring sensation and a little odd that you hurt our ring finger. Hope that decision works out. Mine is still on (I would have to get it cut off...lol) but it feels right there.  I just got a note from a friend who fell on the ice. There is something doubly dismal about the weather this time of year. It is like Spring, Hope, will never happen. 

Love to you all!

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