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Latest Activity: Mar 10
So many of the comments I am reading are encouraging in that you are making progress and the "open wound" is healing. I can relate to this as well. While I think of my husband everyday and will always love him my mind is now more focused on building a life alone. I am not as sad and I am getting out more, becoming more productive. It feels good. Then, there are those days where I get that big wave of grief again but they are less and not as overwhelming. I feel that I have finally accepted this new reality. What I feel now is I need to find more friends (particularly widows/widowers) and create a community I can relate to so I am not as lonely. While my family loves me and we see each other they are busy and I don't want to completely lean on them for company. May you all have more good days...Hugs
"Transition from 'me' to 'we'" Not there completely yet, but I really enjoy the days that I am. Sometimes I wake up full of life, and a feeling that it's my life to live and the question is only, how can I live it well? And even though I'm so aware that it's mine and mine alone to choose/build, there's also an awareness that he's still with me and he's happy that I'm happy and he's cheering me on. Other days, I can barely see my way until the night time and that becomes my single goal-- just getting through the day. But I can't seem to figure out what the pattern is, if there is one to be found.
I too can report that I'm (nearly!) done with the fully open wound feeling, mixelated. What an apt description.
Congratulations to you, Terry on finding a specific path! I've found one, too, but I hesitate to make the complete leap. I'm getting there in stages, though.
Brandy1977, I talk to my husband out loud, too. I also write to him. Either way, it feels like I've gotten something off my chest and it's easier for me to move on to the next thing.
After having made it through the first major family crisis without him this last month, having seen our daughter through her accident and surgery and moved her back in with me to recover, I think I am stronger and more stable. I am taking more things in stride rather than crumpling at each challenge. I have stopped feeling like an open wound.
Most of the time, anyway.
I'm doing better too. I made the transition from we to me. I don't like it nearly as much, but at least I don't feel like a person ripped in two any longer.
Hi Everyone, Sorry I have not been on for awhile a lot of changes and up and down emotions.
SuzyB, I can relate the 1 year anniversary is coming up on June 16th and I can't believe how fast time has gone just like you I am trying to move forward a little each day I know I will miss her for the rest of my life but I can't have her back so myself and my kids are going to have to be a family without her here. I still talk to her out loud when I am alone and ask her what I should do when it comes to decisions about our girls. I know we are all going through this journey be we will make it through one step at a time. Hugs to you
Hi everyone. I'm not sure exactly what is happening, but I seem to be feeling quite a bit better about my life lately (yes, I'm surprised). In mid-June it will be a year since Darrell has been gone, so I've begun dreading the anniversary coming up, but other than that things have been going fairly well. I still miss him a lot each and every day, but now I can look at old photos of good times with him and experience both joy as I remember the fun times we had as well as the sadness that he is no longer here. I feel I am beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know I will be grieving him to some degree probably the rest of my life, but I can also see that going on with my own life might just be possible without him. In fact, I am already doing that.
Terry - you are blessed to know what area to get into to put purpose back into your life! And you'll be such a blessing to others! I am looking - but so unsure. I am searching for my new normal - and for what the next chapter in my life should look like.
It was a decision of mine even before my wife's death that I wanted to do something with volunteer work in the line of palliative care. I knew for the first year or so that it would be out of the question as I was too deep within my grief to be of assistance to anyone else. I continued to feel that pull though and today I finally took action on it. My local community college offers a 6 part credit course in palliative care and I decided this morning it was time to get off the pot. It is my hope that by reaching out to others, I will learn the lesson that I needed to from my experience. I believe my increased level of compassion will be of service to others and at the end of the day, I will be reminded that it is not all about me. I have to thank all of you here for the strength you have given me over the past 14 months. Reading your experiences has been of real value to me as I hope mine have helped some of you. Maybe I will be realizing the purpose that I felt was hidden deep within me for so long.
@Hopeful30 - thank you for your kind words. I don't post too often but I do read the comment wall from time to time. It's hard sometimes reading the about grief that we all have to work our way through but it's also somewhat comforting realizing this roller coaster of emotions and the efforts to move forward even if by one hour at a time; it's not only me. All of us are trying to find a way to continue on without our beloved. Hugs, strength to all and continue to believe in yourself.
Hi Mary H,
I get what you are saying and it is absolutely true. Husbands and wives make sacrifices, compromises and do things for one another because they love each other. While well intended, comments like "it wasn't always easy," don't exactly help. Sometimes, you just need someone to be there to listen and not comment on evolving emotions.
I recently visited my parents in Florida. Since my Patrick died, my mom has said things that have made me angry and simply aren't helpful at all. Initially, she stopped mentioning his name as if he never existed and I love to hear his name and I don't want him erased. I also don't want to hear any gripes about times when they were at odds for whatever reason. I understand that mothers don't like to see their children suffering and it is their natural instinct to try and make things better, but sometimes it is simply better to be there and remain silent.
I came across an article that mentioned 8 of the worst things you can say to someone who is grieving, and I let her read it during my last visit. I know it must have upset her because she'd practically said everything on the list to me, but I explained that I did not show it to her to hurt her but to help her understand that the best thing she could do for me is simply be there for me when I fell apart and not try to fix me. I further explained that what I was on a journey that only I could find my way through and that this was not something I would simply get over. I think she finally understood.
Here is the link: 8 Worst Things...
Perhaps you can show the list to your friend and speak to her about it. If she is a true friend, she will understand.
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