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My husband Scott passed away from brain cancer 1 year and 4 days ago at the age of 39. I'm sitting her in disbelief as I reflect on the past year...the first and from what I'm told hardest year of them all. We have 3 children and at 36 I'm learning to be a single parent and widow all at the same time, its overwhelming! However I still consider myself lucky, weird I know but I am. My husband loved me so well in the 14 years we spent together that his love still sustains me even after his death. Scott battled with a rare form of cancer for four years and four months before his body could no longer fight back. Believe me when I tell you it was his body that gave out not his spirit. None the less my strong and youthful love went from 38-98 over the course of the 3 weeks his life that which he spent on hospice. I am so thankful that I found this site because I am a young widow (36) and all the support groups that are local and even the one offered by hospice is really for older widows and widowers. Although I know we all have the same pain of loss, as a behavioral and social scientist I know that there are different elements that come with being a younger widow. Its difficult to feel robbed! We did not get to do all the things we had planned, I still have 3 kids to raise, we won't get to be grandparents together and dance at our daughters weddings to name a few. Not only do I hope to gain support from all of you, but I am finally in a place within my own grief process where I can be a help and encouragement to all of you as well.
I am really being uplifted by the positive stories as well. It's nearly eight months for me and I can echo what many of you are saying. I have some really tough times but I also have hours and even days when I'm OK, not great but not as low as I was in the first few months. May this trend continue for all of us.
Really enjoying reading the positivity. I'm coming up on the big 6 month mark, and maybe it's the warmer weather and the green leaves, but I feel, too, as though I can see a way forward. Not what I wanted, but it is something I can accept and live with. I will always miss him.
So many of the comments I am reading are encouraging in that you are making progress and the "open wound" is healing. I can relate to this as well. While I think of my husband everyday and will always love him my mind is now more focused on building a life alone. I am not as sad and I am getting out more, becoming more productive. It feels good. Then, there are those days where I get that big wave of grief again but they are less and not as overwhelming. I feel that I have finally accepted this new reality. What I feel now is I need to find more friends (particularly widows/widowers) and create a community I can relate to so I am not as lonely. While my family loves me and we see each other they are busy and I don't want to completely lean on them for company. May you all have more good days...Hugs
"Transition from 'me' to 'we'" Not there completely yet, but I really enjoy the days that I am. Sometimes I wake up full of life, and a feeling that it's my life to live and the question is only, how can I live it well? And even though I'm so aware that it's mine and mine alone to choose/build, there's also an awareness that he's still with me and he's happy that I'm happy and he's cheering me on. Other days, I can barely see my way until the night time and that becomes my single goal-- just getting through the day. But I can't seem to figure out what the pattern is, if there is one to be found.
I too can report that I'm (nearly!) done with the fully open wound feeling, mixelated. What an apt description.
Congratulations to you, Terry on finding a specific path! I've found one, too, but I hesitate to make the complete leap. I'm getting there in stages, though.
Brandy1977, I talk to my husband out loud, too. I also write to him. Either way, it feels like I've gotten something off my chest and it's easier for me to move on to the next thing.
After having made it through the first major family crisis without him this last month, having seen our daughter through her accident and surgery and moved her back in with me to recover, I think I am stronger and more stable. I am taking more things in stride rather than crumpling at each challenge. I have stopped feeling like an open wound.
Most of the time, anyway.
I'm doing better too. I made the transition from we to me. I don't like it nearly as much, but at least I don't feel like a person ripped in two any longer.
Hi Everyone, Sorry I have not been on for awhile a lot of changes and up and down emotions.
SuzyB, I can relate the 1 year anniversary is coming up on June 16th and I can't believe how fast time has gone just like you I am trying to move forward a little each day I know I will miss her for the rest of my life but I can't have her back so myself and my kids are going to have to be a family without her here. I still talk to her out loud when I am alone and ask her what I should do when it comes to decisions about our girls. I know we are all going through this journey be we will make it through one step at a time. Hugs to you
Hi everyone. I'm not sure exactly what is happening, but I seem to be feeling quite a bit better about my life lately (yes, I'm surprised). In mid-June it will be a year since Darrell has been gone, so I've begun dreading the anniversary coming up, but other than that things have been going fairly well. I still miss him a lot each and every day, but now I can look at old photos of good times with him and experience both joy as I remember the fun times we had as well as the sadness that he is no longer here. I feel I am beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know I will be grieving him to some degree probably the rest of my life, but I can also see that going on with my own life might just be possible without him. In fact, I am already doing that.
Terry - you are blessed to know what area to get into to put purpose back into your life! And you'll be such a blessing to others! I am looking - but so unsure. I am searching for my new normal - and for what the next chapter in my life should look like.
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