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Widowed in 2017

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My free audio book " It's all about.... moving on "

Started by Wendy Apr 1. 0 Replies

Hi, My husband died in September 2017. He was the love of my life. During the last 18 months I wrote a practical book on how it feels and how to navigate through it. This is the link …Continue

Making new friends

Started by Mike. Last reply by Lala Mar 2. 24 Replies

I read a lot about people who have a great support group of family and friends. But my wife was my best friend and my family is far away. So my support group is digital, either online or on the…Continue

Has Anyone had any 'Strange' things happen in your house since your spouse passed?

Started by Shoosie2. Last reply by eightracker Jan 25. 14 Replies

Good Morning EveryoneI haven't had much of a chance to post anything recently, but I do read everything. I just had to ask this question. Two days after my Rick passed, December 20, 2017, I was…Continue

6weeks out and overwhelming sadness

Started by Luv4Z. Last reply by SweetMelissa2007 Jul 20, 2018. 9 Replies

Today I have an overwhelming sadness . Im sure this is not a stranger to anyone on this site. I get so sad all of sudden . I have 4 kids under the age of 12 and they see me crying every day. I try to…Continue

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Comment by kellygreenstrat (Colin) on March 5, 2017 at 9:52am

I'm so glad to hear you wouldn't change a thing.  We lived that way knowing her time was limited.  Our 20th wedding anniversary was in November and we planned a trip to Disney (since our honeymoon this would be our 20th trip).  The doctors told us in August that we should go right away.  We didn't.  We kept our plans, loaded the truck (flying was too difficult so we drove 1200 miles) and planned to leave at 2AM.  At 8 oclock that night her nephrostomy tube  (to her kidney) blocked.  we ended up in the emergency room that night and had surgery in the morning.  They kept her 5 days and we spent our 20th in the hospital.  I scrambled to remake the plans to Disney and we left 4 days later.  Not what we planned, but it was everything we hoped for.  In all my time through this I never ever felt regret or wished we had done things differently.  I feel your pain in not knowing how to put the pieces back together.  I trust in God.  It does help me though everyone finds comfort where they can.  She was more a part of me than I was and I struggle to know who I am without her.

Comment by mcbeth (Mary Beth) on March 5, 2017 at 6:23am

VenusBlue I think I would rather sleep through Sunday mornings. Tom would watch his car shows on TV, I would be checking my email and enjoying a second cup of coffee. We both enjoyed a dark roast coffee and our daughter and gotten her Dad two bags of coffee from The Roasterie in Kansas City. I haven't been able to open either bag yet.

Larry I think right up until the end we are all holding out for one last miracle. I know before we took Tom off the vent my youngest daughter kept asking her Dad to squeeze our hand. I told her that if he did, I would not be able to take him off the vent. After we took it off, he slept ant snored for over 4 hours and I just knew that he was going to pull through and life would be normal again. When he took his last breath I wanted to shake him and scream at him "no  you can't leave me, it isn't suppose to be this way." I wanted to slap the life back into him.

It's funny that I am sitting here talking to a group of people that I do not know, but sharing with you the raw, bleeding part of myself that I will not share with anyone, especially my family. Being strong in B.S.

Comment by guilloma (Joanna) on March 3, 2017 at 11:06am

Just checking in with this group today.  I hope that each one of you is doing the best that you can.  Today is an OK day for me.  Still lots of crying, but I do not feel as jagged as I have felt recently, especially the past few days.  Of course that could change in an instant, but for this moment, it is OK.  Take care

Comment by guilloma (Joanna) on March 2, 2017 at 12:40pm

I am sorry that you are here, Heavyheart.  It does help to know that others are experience similar things.  My husband was older, so we did not make long term plans (I am not much of a planner anyway), but we did have some short term things that we wanted to do together.  Now those things are just gone.  And none of us get get to make any new memories with our loved ones; we are all stuck reliving the ones that we already have.  They say that the grief gets softer; I sure hope so.  I hope that the people and stories on this site will help bring you some peace.

Comment by guilloma (Joanna) on March 2, 2017 at 9:37am

mcbeth, I work from home, but usually go into the main office once a week.  I have not been in weeks, but I drove in on Tuesday this week.  It was rough.  I am in an office in the back, tucked away by myself.  It was good to focus on something else, but it was also nice to be alone, where I could lay my head on my desk and cry every now and then.  My co-workers pretty much left me alone back there.  I have been trying to let my emotions just roll on through, no matter when or where.  I have cried in my car, in the grocery store, at my bank, in my finance guy's office, in front of my boss, at my washing machine, in the middle of street walking my dog.  I never feel a sense of relief after crying, like I have with other losses, but it helps to just let it flow.  And sometimes, very rarely, I can smile at a memory of my husband.  I usually cry after that, too, but that's OK.  I hope that you find a moment of peace.  Hugs to you.

Comment by Heavyheart on March 2, 2017 at 8:39am
Hi all,
I feel this raw pain of grief still. I lost my boyfriend John on February 9. John and I were discussing getting engaged and making lots of plans for the future. His death has been so sudden and devastating. He was on vacation, I was not able to go with him on this occasion, and while he was out one day he had an accidentwhich resulted in his passing. I find myself worried for a future without him as we were just beginning to plan so much. I still am struggling right the why him, why us? I hate that he is no longer here.. there is a bittersweet solace in knowing others are experiencing similar thoughts and feelings. I know this journey is long and rough.. I can only hope that one day this pain will. It be so heart wrenching and raw
Comment by guilloma (Joanna) on March 2, 2017 at 7:09am

Yesterday (03/01) was exactly 5 weeks since my husband passed.  In some ways, I feel worse now than I did those first 2-3 weeks. The grief is different - not quite as raw and stabbing - but now I think that my brain is finally starting to accept that he is gone, which is another kind of horrible.  I hate this so much. I don't want to get used to his absence!  I just want him here with us.

It is such a drastic change, VenusBlue.  It is incomprehensible to me.

Comment by mcbeth (Mary Beth) on March 2, 2017 at 5:24am

Morning Ladies. I lost my husband of 42 years on January 2. He had diabetes, heart and kidney problems, but  at the time he died he was dong well and it was not expected. We have been together since we were juniors in high school. We did everything together and the only time we were apart was when we were at work, even when he was in the hospital I was with him every day. I had to go back to work the week after he died, it's a double edge sword. It gives me a reason to get up and get dressed every day but at the same time I'm pretending that I'm doing ok. I'm afraid that I have not really let it sink in and that one of these days I'm going to lose it. I don't know if any of this makes sense. I am not happy to be here but I am glad that I have found a group that can understand what I'm going through.  MaryBeth

Comment by guilloma (Joanna) on March 1, 2017 at 6:33pm

Thanks for breaking the ice on this group, VenusBlue. I have been meaning to do so, but I kept forgetting. I am so sorry for your loss; it sounds like you and your husband had built a great life with each other.  I lost my husband, Michel, on January 25.  He had several chronic diseases, but was doing well.  Unfortunately, he caught the flu on January 19 and passed away on the 25th.  It was sudden and unexpected.  I too am struggling with the utter separation after being together all of the time. Michel was retired and I work from home.  If we were not together, than we were texting or talking to each other on the phone.  This abrupt and complete separation is killing me. I just want to check in with him, like I could at any other time that we were apart. I write and talk to him almost daily, but there is no feedback.  This site definitely helps.  

Comment by Soaring Spirits on February 3, 2017 at 7:51pm

We are grateful you found us so soon after your loss, but until this group grows please feel free to also join the Widowed in 2016 group. There are active conversations there with others in their first year of loss.


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