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   I am new here and something is wrong with me. It has been over 2 years and  I still can not believe this could have ever happened.  This has to be a terrible bad dream or an illness I will wake from.  Mike was never sick a day in his life, he was bigger than life and my whole life for as long as I can remember.  I have been to counselors and ministers and everywhere for help.  I can not accept…