"Laurajay, I just read your post, and I could not have said it any better. I am TRYING to put up my tree, but every decoration has meaning to it. Even the elf on top is 50+ years old...it was our first and only! "
"Hi 40ford - Im Laurel and like you it's been a while since I have gotten on this site. I like it, but then again I don't -- I am coming up on 6 years in Feb., 2018 and I don't think things have gotten better, but they are a new…"
"It's been a long long time since I wrote anything, but I'm coming up on 5 years (Nov 26) and the weight of this anniversary is a heavy burden. NOTHING has changed in 5 years and the pain is as bad as ever! I've been going to a…"
Hi 40ford - Im Laurel and like you it's been a while since I have gotten on this site. I like it, but then again I don't -- I am coming up on 6 years in Feb., 2018 and I don't think things have gotten better, but they are a new normal for me. When Bob was alive and with the cancer, we went to counseling and it really helped, but after his death I went alone for 2 years and I felt like it was a very slow process, I have to think back to some of those conversations. I have children - not here in Austin, TX and I do not see them very often, so being alone with my friends are my family. Holidays are not good for me - I have said every year that I want to be somewhere else - now here., but somehow I end of at home - alone. Oh well. Take care and take every day one step at a time.
Hello 40ford..... I have had a very bad two days.I have not been able to stop crying,then I saw your post "I remember" Thank you,I have been able to reflect back and smile a little. Maybe it will be a better day today because of your post.....Sincerely,teacher50(Sandy)
Hi there, not sure where in NJ you are but this weekend I am hosting a huge widows weekend at my home in Rockaway (Morris County NJ) Hope you get this in time and if you want to find out more just give me a call on my home office line 973-453-6088, I also am part of a weekly meetup group that meets for dinner every Wed. at Charlie Browns in Denville NJ we have upwards of 25 each week meeting and having a good time.
I am 1 yr. and 14 days into this journey. Some days it's a "hellish nightmare" and other days it's just hell. Although my husband and I were married 24 years he was my best friend and like you my life revolved around him. Our wedding anniversary was on April 9 and the 1 yr anniversary of his death was on April 25, 2013 so needless to say, April was a "sucky" month. I did spend both days with my kids which was of some comfort but I wanted my husband..... I was grateful that my kids were with me and we did enjoy some wonderful memories but it's not the same. I pray that you will continue to trudge through this journey until you find your legs under you firmly again. It will come and when it does believe me you will be shocked that you made it through the day without feeling like you're lost at sea.
I am so sorry and sure understand your anger. My beloved Rick passed away 5 week and 2 days ago and I am off from work today. I am still in shock I believe but am staying with my daughter and her family. Had to take my car for inspection for first time in 15 years! We also put off doing many things planning to do them in a couple of years when I would retire. He always wanted to just go ahead and do trips and I was always the one saying lets not do it until we get bills paid off. Now I live with the thought. I hope that you have a friend or family member to spend the day with. Many hugs to you and a prayer your way for ease of your pain and anger
So sorry for the reason that you’re here but glad you’ve joined us. You’ll find insight, understanding and support here at Widowed Village. We’re traveling the same road together some further down the road than others. Join a group when you’re ready to get better connected. Participate in a forum and/or chat anytime. If you have questions, feel free to ask. There is always someone around willing to help.