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AandC
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  • Slidell, LA
  • United States
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AandC commented on ScarletPlumes's blog post There's A Hole
"ScarletPlumes HUGS....it takes time but in time, you will begin to live once again, but you will never forget your love. "
Jun 15
AandC commented on AandC's blog post Loneliness
"Estragon and etc.  I wish I could just have that "hanging out" aspect. I tried it with this man and becoming attached. We actually had a closure session a week ago with the understanding of "I'm not ready" and "I…"
Jun 13
Estragon commented on AandC's blog post Loneliness
"Hi KMDH.  Actually, you are "talking to men" (I roll that way, actually), and you don't need to feel guilty about it.  I sent you a "friend request", which I think lets you send me a message if you ever want to…"
Jun 9
KMDH commented on AandC's blog post Loneliness
"Thank you for posting.   I am lonely and lost. We did everything together and now I don't know what to do.  I don't want to be lonely.  I am not ready to  talk to men and I feel guilty thinking about it."
Jun 8
AandC commented on OriRising's blog post Chasing Memories
"I am only at my 8th month of losing my husband. But I already know about losing time in these precious 8 months. It is like a fog that I am trying so hard to get out of. I have decided to take one day a week with my boys and enjoy that day no matter…"
Jun 8
AandC commented on ScarletPlumes's blog post There's A Hole
"I understand the hole. It just doesn't seem to want to go away. I have learned to live with that aching pain where that hole is. Some days, there seems to be a knife in that hole moving in and out. It took me a total of 3 months before I could…"
Jun 8
AandC commented on AandC's blog post Loneliness
"ChaWi for your understanding. Understanding one another is a form of support that I appreciate. It is hard for people who have not lost their spouse/partner to understand the pain, anxiety, fear, and loneliness associated with this type of…"
Jun 8
ChaWi commented on AandC's blog post Loneliness
"I totally understand how you’re feeling. I miss my husband so much all the time. Lately, my loneliness has been so much worse. We were so close and so comfortable with each other. I hate not having my person. I keep trying to get used to what…"
Jun 7
AandC commented on AandC's blog post Loneliness
"Thank you all so much for your comments. Believe me, it helps. I just smiled and felt some sort of peace.  HUGS back at you Tess. "
Jun 3
Debb commented on AandC's blog post Loneliness
"No you’re not weird. I think we could all use that in our lives. Perhaps some day it will happen naturally."
Jun 2
Estragon commented on AandC's blog post Loneliness
"Maybe I'm just weird, but why does it has to be so binary?  Is it not possible to have a relationship with someone, possibly of the opposite sex, which isn't the typical "whole enchilada" sort of deal?  I haven't…"
Jun 2
Tess commented on AandC's blog post Loneliness
"AandC, it may be too soon and that is why you are feeling such apprehension. Give it time, and if it’s meant to be, you’ll return to each other. Emotions are like full on rollercoasters for the first year and even beyond. It’s hard…"
Jun 2
AandC commented on AandC's blog post Loneliness
"Tess, only1sue, and Debb, thank you so much for these simple but thoughtful words. It is a painful journey, but I know I should just relax and take a step back. I did have a date with a man that I really liked. We were connected, and he gave me…"
Jun 2
Tess commented on AandC's blog post Loneliness
"AandC, it is not wrong, especially at your young age. This may be the worst part of losing a spouse. Sure you lose your foundation in life, but the hope for that wonderful feeling of love and belonging feels like it slipped away along with it. You…"
Jun 1
AandC commented on Soaring Spirits's group Born in the 70s
"@TheEDCZone Thank you so much once again for your thoughtful words. You always help me on some of my toughest and not so tough days. :) It is nice to be able to share understand each other's feelings. "
Jun 1
AandC commented on AandC's blog post Loneliness
"Being lonely is something you can learn to live with and move on. But, I don't want to be lonely. My husband died instantly and unexpectedly. It shook my whole world.  I do talk to other men online which gives me a type of relief but also…"
Jun 1

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Fresh and Raw

On July 27, 2019, my husband passed away unexpectedly where I was the one to discovered and held his lifeless body that I was sure someone could fix. But, even as he was rushed to the hospital, no one could bring him back to me.

It's still very raw and fresh: the stabbing aching pain, the breakdowns, the not realizing he is really gone on some occasions, the anxiety, the remembering looking into my husband's lifeless eyes when I pulled him into my arms. It's all so raw and fresh.

I need someone to talk to about the death of my spouse. It's hard for others to understand who never experienced it before. I'm hoping and praying that this site will bring me some peace. I know speaking with others will bring comfort and understanding. 

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Loneliness

Posted on May 31, 2020 at 4:06am 16 Comments

I haven't written here in quite a while. I have been dealing with the loss of my husband through the waves that hit me sometimes with knowing and sometimes without. It's a struggle day to day to move on and realize that my life does have meaning. Now my worst are the fears and anxiety that builds in me. I am so lonely for companionship. I know to some, this is wrong, but I can't help it. I want and need to feel alive again. The loneliness kills me deeply. I went on dating apps…

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The Deep Cry

Posted on September 18, 2019 at 3:47am 2 Comments

So, last night was one of those nights, one of those times, where I just broke down into a deep sorrowful cry. It came out of nowhere. Maybe it was because I had things to do yesterday so I tried to be normal which is an understatement. Holding in your emotions to get through each and every day is rough, tough, and almost unbearable. It's so exhausting. So, at the end of the day when I could relax, I think it hit me. I usually cry throughout the day here and there, but yesterday I had things…

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Holding back the Sorrow and Pain so others don't feel it too

Posted on September 8, 2019 at 10:30am 20 Comments

I have realized that I have been trying to find words to use that do not cause anyone pain or hardship. I have been trying to hold all my emotions in except in the early morning hours and late nights when I close myself off. Do you know how uncomfortable people become, even close family and friends, when you show your grief to them? I'm sure you do. I try so hard not to cause anyone pain or grief from my pain and grief. I made most of my family and friends stay…

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Fresh and Raw

Posted on September 6, 2019 at 1:12pm 12 Comments

On July 27, 2019, my husband passed away unexpectedly where I was the one to discovered and held his lifeless body that I was sure someone could fix. But, even as he was rushed to the hospital, no one could bring him back to me.

It's still very raw and fresh: the stabbing aching pain, the breakdowns, the not realizing he is really gone on some occasions, the anxiety, the remembering looking into my husband's lifeless eyes when I pulled him into my arms. It's all so raw and…

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At 11:34am on September 5, 2019, eliana said…

Welcome to Widville, AandC. I am truly sorry for your loss, and hope you find caring support and friendship here.

Here's the best place to start: Need help using the site? Ask here!  You can join the Groups that fit you to connect to others with similar experiences. Share your story. Take a look at our Forum discussions where you'll find meaningful conversations taking place.  I look forward to getting to know you here in Widville. Take care of yourself.

 
 
 

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