Yes you said it perfectly... i find myself wanting to seek a companion but then the guilt of doing that especially too soon sinks in. I know nobody can replace my husband I am too in love with him . He was my everything. He knew my thoughts and my words even before I spoke them. He kept me grounded and calm during any situation. His words were always “rest easy my love”. I know what we shared cant ever be duplicated but I do not want to be alone for the rest of my life. Im 47 he was 57. Its. Long life sentence of feeling this way. Its not something we ever talked about so for this reason I don't feel he would ever want me to be with anyone else. I think for now its the companionship I am missing and needing the most especially at night. Do any of you feel this way?
You are so right. Friends that have not experienced this kind of loss can not relate. Its definitely a lonely scary time. Such a great idea to foster a dog. It will help give you a bit that companionship. I love dogs but I dont think Im there yet. Feel lost. Not working and just at home everyday Of course this covid isnt helping much either. Would be nice to have a work from home role. How do you cope at night? Do you find it harder ?
Hi I just lost my husband (the love of my life on February 6th also and I can so relate how you are feeling. I too am terrified of our empty home. I see him everywhere in it and am always imagining him and his words. I miss his love. My feelings are all over the place. We were married 10 months when he was diagnosed with Diffuse Large B cell lymphoma and 10 months after that he passed.... I fought along side of him every single day, every single appointment, every single hospital stay I was there day and night. Now I am lost :(
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