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Taunje liked Alycia E's blog post Writing "The End" In Your Book
amcmoore commented on Alycia E's blog post folded newspaper
"Beautiful post. I've never actually been able to look at my husband's obituary. I glanced for about two seconds to confirm that it had been published, then shoved it in a bag and never looked at it again. I saw the online version but the…"
Lisa ( Marielee) commented on Alycia E's blog post One step in pain
"One step at a time... that's all we can do. That is how I have gotten through one whole year. Losing control is very natural during this process. My husband committed suicide to and probably my biggest thing to deal with was the hotel charged…"
Nikki S commented on Alycia E's blog post One step in pain
"A little over 41/2 years out now, but just a few months after Chris died I had a collection agency call me and ask to speak to him. As if that wasn't painful enough, I processed to tell her he was killed but I was his wife and asked what the…"
MissHIm11 commented on Alycia E's blog post folded newspaper
"Alycia,
You express yourself beautifully. I am so sorry for your families pain. Hugs to you!
Crystal "
jtod4 commented on Alycia E's blog post One step in pain
"I really liked getting that bill for the helicopter that was $20000.00, insurance paid it all but $150. They called me everyday for a month wanting there money. Im going to admit they won so I went ahead and paid it, I was so tired of their…"
Alycia E commented on Alycia E's blog post One step in pain
"I think I will throw some stuff today. I have some old plates I never really liked. It's time to hurl those suckers and feel better for now."
Lady G commented on Alycia E's blog post One step in pain
"Ohh I so know how you are feeling of everything being out of control. Of being exhausted, not sleeping. Today would have been our 15year anniverary and I want to scream I want to cry i want to trow things. I don't know what I…"
CrazyWidow commented on Alycia E's blog post One step in pain
"The bills kept coming over a year after Kevin's death. I actually would just let them pile up in a file folder without opening them. I couldn't see it, the evidence of what had caused his death. I also understand your…"
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another take on "the end"
Posted on August 8, 2011 at 11:50pm 1 Comment 0 Likes
Pages full of words, pictures and descriptions. Some made you laugh. Some made you cry. Some made you shake in anger. But you put them there. You chose the way the pages were filled. Then you decided that all that effort weren't worth another moment of your time.
You slammed the book down and declared "The End"
You forgot that others were reading with you. You forgot that the pictures were cherished memories of a family. You forgot that the descriptions were foundations…
Writing "The End" In Your Book
Posted on August 8, 2011 at 7:35pm 1 Comment 1 Like
Dear Dan,
I said I wouldn’t write to you here again, but breaking promises doesn’t seem to be a big deal to you.
I drove to Texas this past week. The amount of pressure here was more than I could simply bear alone. Texas is home and my heart pulled me home for a moment. 10 hours on the road gave me plenty of time to reflect. I was walking around the house and everything around here is you. No matter what I looked at there was a memory. Some good. Some bad. I couldn’t stand the…
Continue folded newspaper
Posted on August 2, 2011 at 12:37pm 2 Comments 0 Likes
Folded Newspaper sits in my wallet. It has yet to yellow or become brittle, it's still too new.
I pull it out from time to time and read the very few lines that sum up my husband's life. It says his age, his occupation and where he died. The part that seems to burn and be written in bold is where it says who he left behind.
A few names. It seems so insignificant.
But all I see when I look at is a few names that weren't important enough to live for. To fight for.…
Continue One step in pain
Posted on August 2, 2011 at 9:25am 6 Comments 0 Likes
Found this old self portrait while I was trying to find a picture to describe how I feel right now.
First of all I am on no sleep. It’s been weeks since I can honestly say I have slept well and now I am on the “One Step” rule.
One step in front of the other, little movements forward…yet, I feel I get no where. I am exhausted with the effort of everything that seems to need to be done…
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- At 8:16pm on July 26, 2011,
Alive & Mortal said… - I am happy that you have joined our peer-support group, and I hope that it brings you some strength and courage as well as peace. Our most treasured memories will make us whole. Help your children recall their dad by rehearsing the memories with them.
- At 8:27pm on July 24, 2011,
jean said… - Your family is beautiful. Just beautiful, thanks for sharing.
- At 11:22pm on July 23, 2011,
Dianne in Nevada said… 
Welcome, Alycia. So pleased you found us - what beautiful girls you have! Take a look around and join our conversations. You'll find wonderful support here.
- At 11:19pm on July 23, 2011,
A Widowed Father said… - Hi there, I figured I'd share this because you might find it amusing. I saw the thumbnail of your profile photo on the same page, and at first glance it looked like you were dressed up in the full regalia of a nun, and I'm thinking to myself, how can a nun be a widow, unless God died... Of course I then clicked on your profile and saw that what I thought was a habit was really just the way the shadows fall in the picture...
- At 10:21pm on July 23, 2011,
wannabmartha said… - You have come to just the right place! Understanding is our middle name! Take care of yourself and be gentle with yourself too! Easier said than done with small children I know. (Who are darling by the way!)
- At 8:17pm on July 23, 2011, wannabmartha said…
So sorry for the reason that you’re here but glad you’ve joined us. You’ll find insight, understanding and support here at Widowed Village. We’re traveling the same road together some further down the road than others. Join a group when you’re ready to get better connected. Participate in a forum and/or chat anytime. If you have questions, feel free to ask. There is always someone around willing to help.
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