Linda 47's Page

Thanks for the friend request. I am sorry that you have to be here.  I look forward to getting to know you better.

Hi Linda Lou, and thank you for accepting my friendship. I lost my wife three months ago to lung cancer (she never smoked a day in her life) she put a valiant battle for two years, one month and 5 days before she died on a Sunday morning with me holding her hand and telling her it was okay for her to go. I think she was trying to hold on to this life because she knew how badly I didn't want to lose her. She was so brave through all the chemo, radiation, hair loss, being sick, medications, and in the end losing the ability to function without assistance. I miss her terribly and have some good days but mostly hard days. I visit her gravesite daily and take her fresh flowers. She was my life and I have an emptiness inside me that will be with me forever. I didn't mean to ramble on..I get started and can stop... how did you lose your husband and when? I'm sorry for you loss and like someone said, this is a website none of us want to be members of, but it is so nice to have a place to go that have people that understand what we are going through. Hang in there.

Thanks Linda Lou for your message. I really enjoy this site and it has be a blessing to me.

Hi Linda, Thank you for the friend request. Enjoyed partying with you in chat. Hope to see you again real soon.

Thank you for your welcome.  I'm just 10 1/2 months away from the loss of my husband.  I'm so thankful for this site because it affirms a lot of what I'm feeling and doing.  I need a place to be "normal."  Happy Saturday!

Linda,

My wife passed a year ago.  We were together 17 years.  I have 4 children and 6 grandchildren.   Three of them born in 2011 and two of them are named after my wife.   She may be gone but her memory lives on in my heart and in the two grandchildren of which she knew one of them was going to be a girl.   It turned out, all three were girls.   Three of my children live within 2 miles of me and the other lives in town.  I live in Jacksonville Beach, Fl.    What I like about the site is that I can talk about experiences I have encountered after her passing and find out if this is unique to me or not.   I am an accountant  and found it unsettling to have my life in order before her passing and now not, but over time, I will fix that with a female friend or more in good time.   I do find dating at this time to be awkward but time heals all.   I truly believe the saying that "People Plan and G-d Laughs".    I do know that life is short, as she passed away at 55, and I strive to be a better person.   What are your thoughts?

Morning Angel, Was reading you post about crying because you feel everyone elses pain. That's why I have't join 'long term illness ' or the year'2010' . Someone said something about hiding and that's me. I just HATE HATE !!! crying for myself and for others. For me because I was so blessed with what I had and I feel like his life doesn't diserve me crying. I want to remember the good man he was, the happiness and the fun of living with him. And for others because I HATE that they are hurting so much and I can't do anything to help them.

Sorry to be such a lousy friend by not talking to you but I do read and think of you. This is my mantra-Look up,give thanks for what has been and what is to be.Take care Brenda

Hi Angel ..... thank you for the friend request.... interested to hear more about your visits to Scotland... sorry for the reason we have met but looking forward to getting to know you . I live in the very beautiful Kingdom of  Fife... Johnston , where your friends live is about 65 miles or so from where I live in a small village..... wishing you healing and courage for 2012...... love and blessings..... Fiona ..xx

Thank you so much for the friend request.  It's always nice to know that someone out there feels the same way I do.  I pray you get through the holidays without too much sadness and that 2012 will be a better year, for both of us.  God bless you.