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Headaches and earinfections and sinus infections and seizures oh my
Started this discussion. Last reply by chez2all Jun 13, 2012. 8 Replies 0 Likes
In the first month or two, has anyone else had the experience that they and their child(ren) Just couldn't get well or completely healthy? My husband passed o Christmas day and sinceBetween our…Continue
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Ashleigh commented on thinkroyally's blog post Making My Doc Appt: The Phone Conversation
"Ha I wouldn't have hung up. I would have given her an ear or two full!"
Ashleigh commented on AlanRRT's blog post Stop the world, I want to get off.
"So much to handle to hold in our overstimulated brains. To much to fathom. Why? why? Why? A question i say a lot. Everyone quick on god has a plan. He doesnt give us more tjan we can handle. Etc etc i wont pretend u havent heard thwm all. Here Is a…"
Ashleigh commented on janet's blog post CHRISTMAS
"But Janet. Christmas should be in our hearts all year not just Christmas day.
I have caught flak for not decorating. People miss soo much when they say oh well this Christmas will be tough when they are makin it all the more tough to deal with. My…"
Ashleigh commented on Barbie Doll's blog post What Should I Do About A Christmas Day Ashes Spreading???
"While sometimes good intentioned this to me would be very difficult
And a little selfish in doing this on a day which is going to be so very hard
For you. Although very sweet spirited to make sure that you are invited. :)
Ultimately you will know…"
Ashleigh replied to M'LADY's discussion ~Dead Flowers what do you do?~
"All the flowers and plants given are gone this brown thumb took cAre of that.
I had a florist say don't feel bad for killing plants. They cost no more than than flowers.
I kept the one lil bouquet of flowers that were at side of casket to have…"
Ashleigh commented on Blue Snow's blog post The Getting Married Again Question
"It is a different idea for everyone I don't discount or encourage an idea that I will or won't find love again.
Fact is. Who really knows. Will I ever have the love I had with Gene. No it was one of a kind
But in the same it's ok to…"
Ashleigh commented on EverydayMorning (Sam)'s blog post Space Shuttle
"Such a beautiful story. :) an amazing tribute to the legacy he left to
Live on in you and your sweet children. God bless you and your family."
bad ass widow commented on Ashleigh's blog post How do we get out of this hell?
"Ash, as hard as it is, you need to start focusing on yourself. Get yourself in for a complete checkup, start eating right and when and if Willow takes a nap then you should too. I agree with Fred and Ali, pick one postive thing each day…"
AEDforever (Ali) commented on Ashleigh's blog post How do we get out of this hell?
"Ash...honey. Listen to Fred. And baby, you gotta try to take care of yourself. I know it's hard. It's hard to care about yourself when you feel you don't have a reason to. but you do have a reason to get up. you have wb. and…"
hendrixx2 commented on Ashleigh's blog post How do we get out of this hell?
"Hi Ash,
Understanding that you are experiencing those emotions and the mental fogginess of grief is your start; you know that at some point you will continue because you have that little girl to guide forward. Right now everything seems out of…"
Jerry commented on Ashleigh's blog post How do we get out of this hell?
"It's been 33 months since my wife passed away and I still have times that I feel like crap. Not as often, but just as bad. I have grown married children. One soon to be divorced, so right now I feel that she needs me both financially and…"
bj628(Bonnie) commented on Ashleigh's blog post How do we get out of this hell?
"((((((((((((((((Ash))))))))))))))))))) Life gives us HARD blows, pulls the rug out from under our feet Why. I don't have a clue. I know you are having a horrible time with the migraines, and I so wish the Dr could find something to…"
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How do we get out of this hell?
Posted on September 14, 2012 at 3:39pm 6 Comments 0 Likes
As I lay here because I lack the want to for getting up. What do I do
How do I continue with life. I'm tired. I'm hurting emotionally and physically.
I want to be normal. I want to be normal. I want to feel normal. Just feel normal for a day
I want to have my short term memory back. I want to remember to take meds without being reminded to
I want a hug and a kiss in the morning and at night from my love. I want to hear willow say daddy because she
Sees him. Not daddy.… Continue
How do I continue with life. I'm tired. I'm hurting emotionally and physically.
I want to be normal. I want to be normal. I want to feel normal. Just feel normal for a day
I want to have my short term memory back. I want to remember to take meds without being reminded to
I want a hug and a kiss in the morning and at night from my love. I want to hear willow say daddy because she
Sees him. Not daddy.… Continue
Addicted
Posted on August 23, 2012 at 9:22am 3 Comments 0 Likes
You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
That line of a song struck me. Am I addicted to the sadness and meloncoly if losing my soulmate? How long will it last ?will it really be til the end? And why am I ok with this? The song was talking about someone with a relationship that ended. This line the only one that really factored into my life. Or will eventually the song ring true in a diff since will gene become just someone that I… Continue
Like resignation to the end, always the end
That line of a song struck me. Am I addicted to the sadness and meloncoly if losing my soulmate? How long will it last ?will it really be til the end? And why am I ok with this? The song was talking about someone with a relationship that ended. This line the only one that really factored into my life. Or will eventually the song ring true in a diff since will gene become just someone that I… Continue
What the hell
Posted on July 1, 2012 at 5:28am 4 Comments 1 Like
My words for wisdom. Anything I want to do or get out if doing. I use the phrase what the hell. I'm no longer afraid tO disappoint. I don't really give a Rats ass who I make mad. I just don't. Life's to short and other than my children. The only person besides myself and kids I cared to make happy is gone. He is in heaven. Soo. I choose not to give a rip anymore. My mind believes this. Can someone convince my heart?
Abandoned
Posted on June 30, 2012 at 6:51pm 10 Comments 0 Likes
Today I feel abandoned. I have friends who said they would always
Be here for us. Where are they now. The witness( Matron of honor) at our wedding I can never get a hold of, she won't answer. My best friends my entire life have written me off as old and perhaps "dead"
Not old news or dead not choosing to live. Just dead. I could not be here now and it wouldnt affect them at all. It's sad. I've helped these people through life. Not saying this to toot my own horn but to jus be honest.… Continue
Be here for us. Where are they now. The witness( Matron of honor) at our wedding I can never get a hold of, she won't answer. My best friends my entire life have written me off as old and perhaps "dead"
Not old news or dead not choosing to live. Just dead. I could not be here now and it wouldnt affect them at all. It's sad. I've helped these people through life. Not saying this to toot my own horn but to jus be honest.… Continue
Comment Wall (8 comments)
- At 11:39am on July 21, 2012,
Dianne in Nevada said… 
Thinking of you on your special day, Ash.
- At 12:35am on July 21, 2012,
jimswife33 (Michelle) said… Happy Birthday! I hope you had a good day.
- At 2:32am on April 13, 2012,
Hunt said… Hi Ash! Willow is beautiful! I enjoyed chatting with you this evening, and look forward to getting to know you better in the future. Continue to be a great mom!
- At 2:21pm on February 23, 2012,
job4348 said… hi ashleigh thinking of you . saw the pictures of willow -she is adorable. love the one of them in hammock looks like having a daddy /daughter chat. hope your day is going good . great chat this morning .hope to see you in chat later Brenda
- At 9:41pm on February 14, 2012,
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- At 7:59pm on February 12, 2012,
Lisa (lost) Lamb said…
I'm so sorry for your loss Ashleigh, but I'm glad you've joined us. I have found great comfort and understanding here in the past 9 months and I hope you will too. Thank you for allowing us to share your journey. Welcome.
- At 9:44pm on February 10, 2012,
carolynne said… Ashleigh, so sorry for your loss, but glad you've found us. It was nice talking to you in chat tonight, hope to see you there again. Take care (((hugs)))
- At 2:22pm on February 10, 2012,
Joyce said… Welcome Ashes: I'm sorry for your loss but I'm glad you found your way to this site. I hope you will find the same comfort and understanding here at WV that I have. In the beginning I just read the blogs and posts and lurked in chat. Post and join us in chat when you feel comfortable. It is nice to be among people who "Get It".
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