I found that I have fallen into some bad patterns. I work all day, come home and do as little as I have to get diner made and then sit in front of the TV or laptop and become some form for a vegetable. Once I am in the vegetable stage I am able to feel really sorry for myself and usually don’t care about anyone else in the world. Yes a real self-pity party.
I realized I needed to start doing things that I enjoy to get out of the self-pity mode. One thing is I thought of is…Continue
Well, my first two posts on Widow Village ended up being 2 rants full of my hurt and my anger. Now some time has passed and after being able to talk to some good friends, I’m now not overwhelmed with emotions. I do feel very numb, though, it’s kind of like I have spent all my emotions and now I’m just trying to make it day by day. Often just moment by moment.
I am empty.
One very important thing you need to know about me is that I’m a Christian. Please…Continue
Today was a day where I just could not stop the emotions. I have been struggling with feeling like friends are letting me down and drifting away. This is causing me to become angry with them and with God. Today I was putting some thought together trying to understand better. My wife Melanie was my best friend (just one of many things she was to me). No one is or was ever closer to me. She was usually the first person I spoke with in the morning and the last…Continue
My name is Jay and I live in the suburbs of Philadelphia. Last November my wife Melanie lost her battle with uterine cancer. She left our world 10 days after our 19 wedding anniversary. I am now the single father of 3 boys 16, 14 and 12.
I have not written much (anything) on Willow Village yet but I have appreciated being able to read others thoughts. I was looking for some people to talk with who are going through the loss of their spouse. I have two friends who lost…Continue