I need to vent, so thanks for letting me do so. I've been REALLY fortunate with in my laws. My LH mother was amazing. His father died 2 weeks after LH and I began chatting online. My MIL lives in…Continue
This Friday I will be getting re-married. As I approach year 5 (wow) of losing Kevin, I'm struggling with the balance of remembering him, mourning him, honoring him, but yet allowing for the honor…Continue
I am getting married on April 5th of this year. My fiance has been divorced and will be putting his old wedding ring towards the cost of our bands. I have meant to do something with my and Kevin's…Continue
Since the death of your spouse have you increased or decreased the amount of risk in your life?Continue
I'm approaching the 5 year sadversary since Kevin died. I knew that this significant amount of time would probably have a great affect on me. I also knew that running my Kickstarter campaign to raise funds to publish our love and loss memoir and having it end on that 5 year sadversary would trigger things. I prepared myself as much as possible by cheering myself on, but I didn't think much beyond that.
Last night I had a date night with NH and I felt myself pushing away…Continue
Posted 10/7 on my blog, brendaleefree.com
I toured a nice hockey facility in Annville today for my daytime job, and in the locker room, the stench hit me. Sweat. Sweaty gear smell. Hockey stench. Kevin.
Just a couple of months after Kevin died, I went through his hockey gear bag and the stench flashed me back to another time. Smell has still been one of the…Continue
I have a fairly public blog where I used to share every intimate detail of widowhood. Now I'm terrified to do so.
I started crazywidow.info after theboitsons.info was no longer made for 2...I began documenting everything I was going through. In the past year I renamed it brendaleefree.com to be more about my life in general, not just widowhood. But now, especially after remarriage, I feel terrified to share about widowhood on my blog. I think it mostly has to do with…Continue