I was married 14 years, with my wife a total of 23 years. She died shortly after her 42nd birthday from Pancreatic Cancer. Diagnosis to death was 7 months. Its been almost 2 years now. I have no children, Delores could not carry full term. We had several miscarriages and finally it was too painful to keep trying. I was her caregiver until the end, she wanted to die and home so that's what we did.
So I went from having a life well planned out, to having no life. We did everything together, we had all we wanted, a house a good dog, good jobs , the world by the tail until Cancer destroyed everything.
Now I am trying to figure out who I am, what purpose in life there is, and hoping the future can bring me real joy again in some way, not just the monetary distractions that fill up the week.