Welcome Boniblu1977" I'm sorry for your loss but I'm glad you found your way to this site. I hope you will find the same comfort and understanding here at Widowed Village that I have. In the beginning I just read the blogs and posts and lurked in chat.You can join the Groups that fit you to connect to others with similar experiences. Post and join in chat when you feel comfortable. It is nice to be among people who "Get It".