Hello, thank you for the comment and friend request. I am trying to be strong but I miss my Ricky so much and now knowing he could still be here had I taken him to a doctor or hospital has me torn up. He was my best friend and the greatest husband, why couldn't I have been a better wife and gotten him help. I know he didn't want more medical bills since he didn't have health insurance but I should have made him go...
Dianne....thank you so much for reaching out to me....I know I am in a good spot....at one point since Bill's death....I thought I would date....BUT after doing so....I realized as time went on how much I still love him...lonely I am....but you can't make it happen ...I have lost so many ...and being ill myself now...I know I'm where I belong...it does make me think of his illness alot...and how we were partners fighting it...and I just feel so much more alone now..going through this without him.....one of my closest friends of 30 years who passed.....lost her son to leukemia 6 months before my daughter passed....and we talked alot about what's harder....watching someone you love die...or losing someone spontaneously....I've done both...many, many times...my daughter died in a blink of an eye....neither is harder.....a loss of a loved one ..no matter how old...or how...takes a piece of your heart out....my husband passed on my deceased daughter's birthday.....I had someone I have alot of respect for tell me the other day that I make it look easy......I hope....that helps me to help others.....I wish you peace in your day! Angel..
Thanks Dianne for the comment. The kitty belongs to my folks, they are just head over heels in love with her. They gave her a Finnish name, It's Kisa which I guess means the cat. Anyway, thx for reaching out to let me know you like the pic.
As many of you liked the poem re Wes called he came in a dream. You can see my photos of him and of us both on my photo page. He was holding me in his arms and gazing into my eyes. His love and tenderness shows - even though he was recovering from a serious operation.
Sorry it took me so long to rewrite this! It won't let me post to your inbox:(. I"m very sorry you had to ' travel this road also:( Stewart"s death by pulmonary embolism must have been such a shock!! When I read your story of how he had died & at such a young age it mAde me HURT on the inside for you:(. I wish we--our spouses & I-- could die together at an old age or the Rapture would occur & we would arrive in HEAVEN at the same time!! My husband, we were married 28 years,John died April 25,2012,age 48 from ALS/Lou Gehrig's Disease & YES it was HORRIBLE!! I have 1 daughter,Ariel, 22 who lives with me:) while taking courses in College to be a teacher. And I worry sometimes if I'm making the right decisions!!, I live in NE Alabama & I'm 50 now. I worry sometimes if I'll ever have someone special to share the rest of my life with! I miss John---I'm doing ok most of the time:). Write soon! Cathy