It has been 2 years, one month, and 3 days since my Husband was taken from this earth. I still don't go a day without thinking about him. Unfortunately, my own family has turned their backs on me…Continue
My husband and best friend died on February 13, 2015.
My husband and I were married for 17 years and had known each other for 24 years total. We have 3 children together at the age's of 23, 21, and 17. I became a widow at the age of 43, which is way too young if you ask me and my husband was only 45 years old when he was taken from us.
My husband died while driving a fuel truck. It is very unclear on what exactly happened to cause the accident. We just know that any health or vehicle complications were determined not to be the cause of it. His semi ended up crashing into the back end of another type of semi (a sand/gravel truck) which then caused my husbands truck to explode on impact. He was gone within seconds, while the driver in the other semi walked away with minor injuries. Needless to say, we do not have any closure. We could not view him as he was burned beyond recognition and we did not get to say our good-byes.
Life as I knew it died that day. As all of you, I am trying to learn how to live again. A minute does not go by that I don't think about him. I miss him every second of every day. Feelings I never knew existed have consumed me completely. I feel lost and alone most of the time. I am simply living day by day, moment by moment and trying to just muddle through it all. Since coming to this site, I have found others like me and that has helped a lot. I am honestly very grateful for this site. There are so many people that care for me and are around me, but they don't truly understand and most the time, it shows. I find myself needing others in my life that have gone through this kind of loss.
I knew the 4th of July would be a hard one to get through but I didn't know it would feel like this. The 4th of July was my husbands favorite holiday. He was like a little kid, setting off his fireworks. Not to mention how he enjoyed BBQing all the food for everyone. I decided that we would have one more big 4th of July in honer of him (he passed away February 13th, 2015). We bought the night works that he always loved to light up, BBQed hamburgers and hot dogs, and invited all the…Continue