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Engagment Rings and Wedding Bands

Started this discussion. Last reply by sean Nov 19, 2015. 15 Replies

Today I blindsided by something I hadn't thought about too much, what to do with my engagement and wedding rings now that my husband is gone and when do I stop wearing them.  Today I had to take them…Continue

Panic attacks/PTSD

Started this discussion. Last reply by SweetMelissa Jan 8, 2016. 20 Replies

Does anyone ever have panic attacks associated with the sudden death of their spouse?  I watched my husband die and all I see is him grabbing at his chest and telling me he had a bad back spasm.  Now…Continue


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I was widowed at age 30 after my husband very suddenly (as in 30 minutes from his first symptom) passed away from an aortic dissection. I have been diagnosed with a multitude of issues since his death; panic disorder, PTSD, panic attacks, depression, etc, but I try to push on each day. We didn't have any children (found out on the day of the funeral that I was not pregnant after a year of trying) but we do have 2 wonderful dogs that get me through each day, no matter how challenging that day is. I'm hoping this site will help me navigate some of the difficulties a feel daily.

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My heart hurts

Posted on June 8, 2015 at 12:16pm 0 Comments

Today my heart just hurts.  Over the weekend I went to visit our godchildren for the first time along since his passing.  I went to the aquarium for our godson's 3rd birthday and my other godson's baseball game.  I kept thinking how much Ray would have loved those moments, especially the baseball game.  He loved those kids so much; he would have been such a wonderful father.  An now my heart hurts because I had to experience the weekend alone.  It also hurts because those boys will never…


Today is hard

Posted on May 26, 2015 at 7:59am 3 Comments

     Well, today is my 32nd birthday but it doesn't feel like anything special.  While I have lots of friends and family wishing me a happy birthday, I am not getting love from the one person I want, my Ray.  Why doesn't today feel special?  It did for many years before I met him, it did all those years I was with him, but now it seems like another day but more hollow. 

     I feel like its not a special of a day because he is not here to share it with me.  I keep hoping I will hear a…


I forgot, just for a moment

Posted on May 21, 2015 at 11:55am 3 Comments

    I forgot, just for a moment, that he was gone.  I don't have these moments often anymore.  Its very rare that I see his car in the garage and think,  "oh good, he is home early", and even when I do have these moments they are only milliseconds of time.  But Sunday I forgot.

    I was sewing some new drapes for my bathroom and vanity, something I have been wanting to do for almost 2 years now.  As I was sewing, I was smiling (again, something that is rare), and thought to myself,…


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At 11:21pm on May 20, 2015, eliana said…

Welcome to Widville, H2obapper. I am truly sorry for your loss, and hope you find caring support and friendship here.

Here's the best place to start: Need help using the site? Ask here!  You can join the Groups that fit you to connect to others with similar experiences. Share your story. Take a look at our Forum discussions where you'll find meaningful conversations taking place.  I look forward to getting to know you here in Widville. Take care of yourself.


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