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Christmas day will mark 6 months since my fiance Chris was killed in a work accident. Our daughter turned 10 months on the 14th.... Chris and I had a whirlwind romance (met April 8 2011, pregnant by…Continue
Chris and I did not get the chance to get married. We were engaged but I did not have a ring b/c I wouldn't let him spend the money (we had a baby on the way). The night before he was killed, he looked at me and said we should get married next summer. I agreed and it was a start. I wasn't in a rush b/c I thought we had time. He was the man of my dreams and daydreamed of our wedding daily, but we weren't in a position to spend money on that yet.
All of my wedding dreams were meant for…
So our daughter turned 1yr old on Valentine's day. I hated that her daddy wasn't here to spend it with her. It's so unfair. I had her party yesterday which went great and we had a major house full. I was too busy to really dwell on the fact that Chris wasn't here but it was still on mind. Friday I went with my dad who came in for the party to get supplies and I had severe anxiety while in Costco and didn't have my Ativan with me (I haven't used it in a couple of months)... Had anxiety on…Continue
While at my counselling session today I mentioned that I still largely feel that Chris is going to come home. She suggested that it may be a way of keeping myself together.. and that stuck with me. It also worries me that one day I am not going to feel like he is coming home, and I am going to fall apart. When Chris died I had a 4 month old baby to take care of, so I couldn't stay in bed and cry all day. I had to get up and eat, etc b/c she needs me to take care of her. Don't get me wrong, I…Continue