Yes Sir I sent out a few to the ones I have corresponded with in hopes that responded will in some way help both parties.  I look to give back as much as be supported.  That is how I have survived, giving of myself.  Thank you for your willingness to reach out.  It goes both ways.  Always here if you need an ear to listen.  Have a blessed week. 

I lost Mark on January 2nd, so only a few weeks before your loss. I just don't even really know how I'm doing. My mood changes quite a bit, so definitely on that roller coaster with you. I missed him so much today. I always do, but it was just really getting to me today. I kept wanting to text him while I was at work and just talk about my day. I haven't been to his grave since the burial, but my mother in law sent me a picture of his marker because it just got there after we ordered it. It was a harsh reminder that he is really gone. I feel his spiritual presence a lot, but its heartbreaking to think of his physical body being gone. Every one says that it's not healthy to play the what if game, but I don't see how it can be helped. It feels only natural to wonder, but try not to beat yourself up over it. Maybe try to find an in person grief support group, if you haven't already. I went to one last week. It went ok, On one hand, it felt great to actually talk about it openly with people who somewhat get it. On the other hand, I'm the only person in there who has lost a spouse. I've been having a lot of why me feelings lately, like what can't things just go right for me like they seem too almost everyone else. So being the only widow in there, just added to that and got me really angry. 

Hi Larry, I'm still learning how to use this site.. so just saw your friend request. How are you doing? Hope you are holding on ok.