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Marina
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Marina commented on Marina's blog post Easier? Not yet...
"A few days over 8 months. I feel worse than I did two months ago. The realization that he isn’t going to magically appear has sunk in now. All those years where we worked and travelled sometimes not seeing each other for a month or more has…"
Aug 15
Julie commented on Marina's blog post Easier? Not yet...
"Trying to find my way i am lost as well. I don’t want to be in thus state of pain but it comes from love of our spouses. How do u close off 44 years. They were not all blissful years but we made it through tough times. There is no one to share…"
Apr 30
chef (John) commented on Marina's blog post Easier? Not yet...
"Everything you're feeling is normal--the loss of concentration, the crisis of faith, the wouddas/couddas/shouddas, the feelings of negativity, etc. I am sorry that you're dealing with the loss of your husband and sister in such a short…"
Apr 29
Marina posted a blog post

Easier? Not yet...

Well, they say it gets easier. I wish I knew, if that were true. It’s almost been five months now, and it still doesn’t even seem real. I find my mind wandering, in a fog, just not even functioning at all. I guess if I were to take a poll, people would think that it looks like it’s getting easier, easier than it was 3 months ago at least. Every day, I miss him. Every day, I miss Ericka. I shut my eyes and I imagine them as they were, Ericka in Washington, Rick in his chair. They visit me in my…See More
Apr 29
Lisa_says commented on Marina's blog post Rollercoaster
"A hug from me to you.  I feel the same way..A roller coaster ride and groundhogs day over and over again..It's been 4 months since my hubby passed and I still cry every single day. I still feel disoriented mentally. The numbness is…"
Apr 18
Marina commented on Marina's blog post Rollercoaster
"Prayers for you Sis. Prayers of hope and encouragement and peace. Thank you for taking the time to comment. Most of the time I just write because it helps me through my day. I used to be very talkative in person. Now it’s hard to talk.…"
Apr 15
Marina commented on Soaring Spirits's group More Than One Loss (Multiple Losses)
"Thank you Tess for your share as well. I’m trying to wait to make any more decisions right away if possible. Because I know my brain is not functioning the way it used to. It’s such a weird feeling to not be in control. But I know Life…"
Apr 15
Marina commented on Soaring Spirits's group More Than One Loss (Multiple Losses)
"Thank you Dianne for adding a discussion forum. It does not appear this group is very active so maybe it didn’t need one?  But maybe I’ll start a discussion thread just to see if anyone wants to join it. Thank you for your support.…"
Apr 15
Marina replied to Gary'swife's discussion For Marina in the group More Than One Loss (Multiple Losses)
"Thank you for your words of encouragement. The whole situation seems surreal. I thought I would bounce back to whatever normal would be by now, but I haven’t. Unless this is my new normal. I pray it isn’t. Knowing that there are groups…"
Apr 15
sis commented on Marina's blog post Rollercoaster
"It's almost like you were listening to my conversation with myself this morning. It was a year in March that I lost my husband, and instead of getting easier it has felt like I'm on this out of control roller-coaster. I never thought of a…"
Apr 15
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Marina commented on Soaring Spirits's group More Than One Loss (Multiple Losses)
"Doesn’t seem to be a discussion option for this group. So I guess we just write in the comments section? For all of you that have suffered multiple losses in a short time or even a long time I am so sorry. I feel your pain. And I even feel…"
Apr 14
Marina posted a blog post

4 months and counting

 When will I stop counting the days?Loneliness seems deeper daily.  I miss Rick. I miss Erica. Apparently this is the new normal.I’m trying to find joy, but it’s so hard. I know this will never be easy, people say it will get easier. I think I would be happy with just easier. Each day seems to  last forever. I’m looking for an escape route. But there isn’t one. I don’t ever wanna forget, I just wanna be able to get through the day without crying. They say if you hold your tears in, it can…See More
Apr 14
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Marina replied to Ozzy turtle's discussion I'm lost in the group Long-Term Illness
"One minute at a time. One breath at a time. Everyone’s journey is their own. Be kind to yourself. Reach out to theta. Cry yell. Laugh. Whatever it takes. I’m here for you!"
Apr 8
Marina posted a blog post

Rollercoaster

I wish I could get off this roller coaster,I wish I could get off this ride. I wish I could get a refund.  You will be just fine - they lied. Or maybe this is a merry-go-round,At this point I’m just not sure. My fear is that it’s only begun,And my existence is just a blur.See More
Apr 7

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Easier? Not yet...

Posted on April 29, 2019 at 10:08am 4 Comments

Well, they say it gets easier. I wish I knew, if that were true. It’s almost been five months now, and it still doesn’t even seem real. I find my mind wandering, in a fog, just not even functioning at all. I guess if I were to take a poll, people would think that it looks like it’s getting easier, easier than it was 3 months ago at least. Every day, I miss him. Every day, I miss Ericka. I shut my eyes and I imagine them as they were, Ericka in Washington, Rick in his chair. They visit me in…

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4 months and counting

Posted on April 14, 2019 at 9:14am 0 Comments

 When will I stop counting the days?

Loneliness seems deeper daily.  I miss Rick. I miss Erica. Apparently this is the new normal.

I’m trying to find joy, but it’s so hard. I know this will never be easy, people say it will get easier. I think I would be happy with just easier. Each day seems to  last forever. I’m looking for an escape route. But there isn’t one. I don’t ever wanna forget, I just wanna be able to get through the day without crying. They say if you hold your…

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Rollercoaster

Posted on April 7, 2019 at 12:30pm 3 Comments

I wish I could get off this roller coaster,

I wish I could get off this ride. 

I wish I could get a refund.  

You will be just fine - they lied. 

Or maybe this is a merry-go-round,

At this point I’m just not sure. 

My fear is that it’s only begun,

And my existence is just a blur.

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At 10:37am on March 25, 2019, eliana said…

Welcome to Widville, Marina. I am truly sorry for your loss, and hope you find caring support and friendship here.

Here's the best place to start: Need help using the site? Ask here!  You can join the Groups that fit you to connect to others with similar experiences. Share your story. Take a look at our Forum discussions where you'll find meaningful conversations taking place.  I look forward to getting to know you here in Widville. Take care of yourself.

 
 
 

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