Hi Marlene! First, I want to thank you soooooo much for your words of encouragement! Even though I often feel very ALONE in the world, I know I am not because of new friends, like YOU! Brenda passed away Sept 15th, 2012. We often talked about if something would happen to one of us and one of us would die, we would want the one left behind to go on and live life to it's fullest. I always thought I was the stronger one of the two of us and I THOUGHT I would have been able to handle Brenda's passing much better than I am. We weren't just a married couple. We were BEST FRIENDS! We did EVERYTHING together. Wherever one of us was, the other was too! A lot of our married friends didn't understand our relationship because we were together 24/7 and WE LOVED IT! I would have (AND DID) do ANYTHING for Brenda! I miss snuggling with her on the couch. I miss her touch. I MISS H E R ! She was absolutely EVERYTHING to me! I used to have a couple family members who I could go to and talk to that were very supportive to me. However, as time goes by, those family members have passed away too. Now I don't have ANYONE to talk to when I get into these deep depressions and I feel like I am in a locked box and I can't get out. Believe me, I try and try and TRY! Sometimes, I do just sit and cry. And sometimes, that helps. Other times, it just doesn't. I just can't believe how the MANY friends we had have all abandoned me, when I need them the most. So not only did I lose Brenda, but everyone else i THOUGHT were friends are also gone from my life. I NEVER imagined I would be HERE in this position. STRONG?...I'm not as strong as I thought I was. I feel like a child who has lost his security blanket. Every day is a tiny step for me. Somedays when it is bad for me, I can only handle one hour at a time. I try to focus on all the wonderful, awesome times Brenda and I had together and thank God for the 20+ years I was sooooooo blessed to have her in my life! I also try to do things that I like to do....go to the movies, eat out, go to the amusement park, etc. These things make me feel better. I still wear my wedding ring as I can't bare to take it off. I keep praying for God to bring me another wonderful person to love. I know they will not be Brenda....but I need a special someone in my life to love! I truly appreciate you being there for me! Thanks for your friendship Marlene! I will keep you in my prayers too! Please keep in touch!
Thank you for adding me. I am still trying to figure this site out. I got married in 1968 until 2012. I was 16. Bill and I did everything together went on vacation ever year so much has changed, not only do I not have my love with me but finacially. Trying to take care of house and car repairs things bill would do. We would go out to eat now I eat alone during the day when my son is at a day program
thank you Marlene in getting back to me i have coped with the loss of grief three times now but guess,this time round with losing my late wife (Jayne) this really came out of now where.She had been diagnosed with breast cancer and like everything in life it did look hopeful that she would recover but sadly the cancer became very aggressive in the end
We had been together since i was 17 ( about 25 years) and had only just celebrated our 17th wedding anniversary back in Jan of this year,if you read my profile bio i speak very highly of her but at same miss her like crazy.I will have a look at your blog as i have quite a few my self through wordpress and blogger also an artist & photographer too
Hi Marlene, Thank you for being my friend! I don't think there is anything better than having wonderful caring friends! We're all in the same place here because we've all lost someone dear to our heart! It certainly wasn't our choice, but it happened and now we can help each other thanks to WV. <3 Stan
Hi Marlene, Thank you for your friend request. I was able to diffuse a very difficult situation with the words you posted and I feel such relief. The timing of you posting and my reading them was uncanny. I'm so sorry you are on this site but am also glad you found it. I have found it to be more helpful than anything during these past 11 months. Laura