So this is going to be a bit of an odd one I think. So I am coming up on my 25th anniversary, and I was walking with a friend through the mall. She roamed off to buy chocolate which didn't surprise me at all :D. I roamed over to the Lego store. Now I hear some of you giggling, I know, weird right? Anyway, I walked in and sitting there on the self was a 50th anniversary Apollo Lander with a Lego mission patch. I tried to turn around and walk out, and I couldn't, I tried not to do it, but…Continue
So 19 months tomorrow and I am starting to come to the realization that I am not interested in the things I 'should' be doing but I am interested again. I went through a relationship recently which was supposed to be friends and I tried to keep inside that line but my mind slipped well beyond that and when I let the emotion of that out, I scared off my friend and lost a really good friend. It happens, the emotion of two people who lost someone very close to them colliding together clearly…Continue
When I close my eyes, in the after image of the world still held there, I can catch you standing beside me.
When I close my eyes, I see that sneaky little grin that told me you were about to be up to something.
When I close my eyes, I see the you from before cancer decided to change your appearance but not your heart.
When I close my eyes, the world seems oddly brighter and more colorful because you are there with me.
When I close my eyes, I wish I never had…Continue
I know so many of us are in so many ways stuck in neutral. Holding our breath, waiting for what we have been facing to go away, but it never will. I find myself stuck in new ways. I decided about 2 months ago to open the chance of finding someone new to bring into my life. To open my heart to the possibility. So I jumped on the online dating bandwagon. Being a computer person and also a person who worked specifically in computer security, I actually relished the random fake profile…Continue