My husband was cremated and I am doing a bit of research into memorial jewellery. There are lots of options of items of jewellery that you can either store a tiny amount of the ashes inside, or even…Continue
I am usually a fairly gushy person and love seeing people celebrate their wedding anniversaries on Facebook etc. I guess because so many marriages end in divorce, I have always enjoyed seeing ones…Continue
"Carrying a Hole" - its an oxymoron. How does one carry a hole?
Usually when we think of carrying something we think of carrying weight, substance, bulk. How can one carry a hole? I guess we can carry something with a hole in it, but you cant carry just the hole. In the context of grief though, "Carrying a Hole" makes perfect sense. We carry a hole everywhere we go. A hole in our hearts, a hole in our lives where someone used to be. A hole in our beds, where our partners slept. A hole…Continue
This week is my eldest son's graduation from High School (we live in Australia). This has been a really tough year for him at school. He has never found study easy or "natural" and so for him to graduate is in and of itself an amazing achievement. The school have been awesome and have really done a lot to help him. They have supported and encouraged and cajoled and offered alternatives. So this week we find ourselves in the week of celebrations and milestones. He has worked hard, and learnt…Continue
Last week I had my birthday. Next week it will be Sean's birthday. His first since he has been gone. Our birthdays are 13 days less than a year apart. So for 13 days we were the same age. Only this year, he wont be going ahead of me anymore. This year I get to be the same age as him for a whole year. Then next year, I will be older than he will ever be. Sean worked away a lot so not being present with each other on our actual birthdays was not unusual. I didn't really miss him as such on my…Continue
I have 4 more years of school to go with the kids and then I am free to roam as Sean and I had planned to do. Only of course now, my plans, our plans, are all shot to pieces. Sean died and we never got to roam as we had planned. Do I go anyway, by myself? What will that look like? feel like? He was always saying "make memories"; "Live life" "travel the country" "see the world". We just never seemed to have the money to travel the world, but we did see a fair bit of…Continue