"Well I'm kind of glad to know I'm not crazy. Yes this journey has so many twists and turns and ups and downs that I don't even know where I am sometimes. On the days when I feel a lot of guilt iwonder what is going on. This hurts so…"
"Hi all I have been having a lot of guilt issues lately. Such sa every time I have a good time or f I just enjoy the weather or anything that makes Mr smile, the guilt says how could you. How could you be happy about anything with Danny being gone.…"
"Mojoy I'm so sorry for the reason you are here. But you will find caring people here who understand and know how you feel. There is no words to make it easier but we care. Share your feelings here it will help to know others understand. Hugs…"
"Joellen, I know what u mean about changing spring bedding for fall ones. It does feel like we are casting them aside. I feel that way every time I change anything. If I move something of his I think if I do this does it mean I'm moving on and…"
"Well I got a letter from Kodak (the organ donner people) yesterday and it had a another note inside.the woman who received Danny's tissue thanked me. Of course I had a melt down. The reason she was helped was that Danny had died. I was glad it…"
"Kiki8 like Tanya said this is a great place to let it out without fear of any judgement about your feelings. I am so sorry for your loss. We all have lost our best friends and that isn't an easy thing to go through. I hope you keep posting and…"
"Joellen, I cant imagine loseing another child (I just have 1left) and I know what you mean about Phil being there for you. Danny would just hold me when I cried my heart out, even thou he was hurting too. Even thou it has been 16yrs ago (he was 8yrs…"
"Tanya, I'm sorry about father and husband. I too lost the two most important guys in my life. My son Spencer (he was 8yrs old) and my husband Danny. It is devasting, but with the help of Jesus I will get thrum this. God bless. Kathy"
"I would love for you to take a hit out on him. I am applying for new jobs but have no new leads yet. I used to be so ambitious and was a leader in my group. Between losing my confidence after I lost Keith and this guy, I feel so…"
"Lisanrich,hi Kathy here. Just read your post and wanted to say I'm sorry for your loss. I also had my husband cremated and brought him home. I hold the box and talk to him too. This house just isn't home anymore without him its just where…"
"Nancy want me to take a "hit " out on him LOL just kidding. It's so not right and I would like to give him a big piece of my mind. He is heartless, but it will come back on him. So sorry u have to deal with this too. Ill pray for the…"
"Hi all just wanted to say youall are doing what I'm doing too. Not sure why but I "think " its my way of rebelling at what has happened to me. I don't really need any clothes or things but it seem to distract me temporary. Then…"
"Karen "the anger "it seems like I'm always angry. I to have a lot of repairs to make and live on a fixed income, with no room for repairs. I wont list them all but there is a lot. Tired of wondering who will help and how I will pay…"
"Snydergirl I'm so sorry.I know how awlful that is. Please don't feel guilty. That's easier said than done I know. I'm glad you found this site because you will find people who care and we get how you feel. You can Msg me anytime.…"
I would love for you to take a hit out on him. I am applying for new jobs but have no new leads yet. I used to be so ambitious and was a leader in my group. Between losing my confidence after I lost Keith and this guy, I feel so beaten down and scared that I truly hate getting out of bed in the morning. I am scared every day of losing my job. I told my Mom the other day that I am one paycheck away from being homeless and I have never been in this position before and I have never been so scared in my life. I used to have a job I loved; a life I loved but now I just struggle to get by both personally and financially. I keep praying but sometimes it just doesn't seem as if there is anyone there. Thank you for your comment, though, it did make me smile at least.
I'm very sorry for your loss, and I do understand what others fail to understand. I don't think they understand what an earthquake its been to our lives. Nothing is the same, and I know in my heart, nothing in my life will ever come close to what Mike and I had together. It makes me so sad to know I'll never know the joy, love, closeness and friendship I had with my husband. I fell the other day, and if he would have been here, he would have been by my side in a heartbeat, Instead, I just layed on the ground till I could pull myself up. It makes you realize how alone you are, and how much you miss their beautiful faces. These are all new feelings to me, because Mike was always there for me--no matter what! We were there for each other always! I hate living without him. It's an existance--not living. Lately, I also stay in a lot. I have no desire to go out. I just want the day over, so I can escape into sleep. Myrtle Beach is so beautiful this time of year. We would have been riding bikes today. He loved living here so much--we both did. When I go out, I see ghosts of our life together, and it's so painful. I just want you to know I do understand. It's been a very lonely journey so far. I wish I could see an end! I'm sick of feeling so afraid and alone. How do you repair so much that's broken?
Our journey started on the same day and we have an anniversary month in common as well. A couple of months ago I got a really bad cold and felt so isolated. No-one to even make a cup of tea. I know how you feel. I get up in the morning and I wish he was here. Several times during the day and again at night. I sometimes feel like I am obsessing about him and just can't get pass this feeling of desperation. I agree that even those nearest and dearest don't get it and then we stop talking. I have a sister who spent two years grieving for a dog who three months after the death of my husband suggested that I 'get over myself'! Yesterday I got a text message from someone very close wishing me 'happy anniversary'. And then people think I should get out more! Why?
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Yesterday "our" best friends stayed overnight on Saturday and took me back to their home for a few days. I am not able to drive any long distance since tony passed on 6/29. For 32 years we have enjoyed these friends. She is my best friend. I am glad to be away from my thoughts and laughing again . But it is sad to not be here with my tony. My friends and 1 family member have carried me on their wings. Today if I cry they will give me that time. Peace and serenity today.
Im so sorry mybigdog80- we all get it and know how you feel. My Danny passed in 2010, and I took didn't want to go on. I cried and cried and wished for him to walk in the door. I always knew in my brain he wasn't coming back but my heart still waits for him and longs for him. I know that I will never get over him I just know that I have to get use to living without him. Im at 22 mths now, is it easier, somewhat, but life will never be the same and I know it.
Welcome mybigdog80: I'm sorry for your loss but I'm glad you found your way to this site. I hope you will find the same comfort and understanding here at Widowed Village that I have. In the beginning I just read the blogs and posts and lurked in chat. Post and join us in chat when you feel comfortable. It is nice to be among people who "Get It".
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