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I would love for you to take a hit out on him.  I am applying for new jobs but have no new leads yet.  I used to be so ambitious and was a leader in my group.  Between losing my confidence after I lost Keith and this guy, I feel so beaten down and scared that I truly hate getting out of bed in the morning.  I am scared every day of losing my job.  I told my  Mom the other day that I am one paycheck away from being homeless and I have never been in this position before and I have never been so scared in my life.  I used to have a job I loved; a life I loved but now I just struggle to get by both personally and financially.  I keep praying but sometimes it just doesn't seem as if there is anyone there.  Thank you for your comment, though, it did make me smile at least.  

Take Care.  Nancy

Thank you for the birthday wishes! I'm happy to have you as a friend.

I'm so sorry for your loss and to "meet" you under these circumstances, but I have found that we widows "get" what every one of us is going through, which is a tremendous help.

God Bless you - you've already given me a happy birthday.

I'm very sorry for your loss, and I do understand what others fail to understand.  I don't think they understand what an earthquake its been to our lives.  Nothing is the same, and I know in my heart, nothing in my life will ever come close to what Mike and I had together.  It makes me so sad to know I'll never know the joy, love, closeness and friendship I had with my husband.  I fell the other day, and if he would have been here, he would have been by my side in a heartbeat,  Instead, I just layed on the ground till I could pull myself up.  It makes you realize how alone you are, and how much you miss their beautiful faces.  These are all new feelings to me, because Mike was always there for me--no matter what!  We were there for each other always!  I hate living without him.  It's an existance--not living.  Lately, I also stay in a lot.  I have no desire to go out.  I just want the day over, so I can escape into sleep.  Myrtle Beach is so beautiful this time of year.  We would have been riding bikes today.  He loved living here so much--we both did. When I go out, I see ghosts of our life together, and it's so painful.  I just want you to know I do understand.  It's been a very lonely journey so far.  I wish I could see an end!  I'm sick of feeling so afraid and alone. How do you repair so much that's broken?

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Im so sorry mybigdog80- we all get it and know how you feel. My Danny passed in 2010, and I took didn't want to go on.  I cried and cried and wished for him to walk in the door. I always knew in my brain he wasn't coming back but my heart still waits for him and longs for him.  I know that I will never get over him I just know that I have to get use to living without him.  Im at 22 mths now, is it easier, somewhat, but life will never be the same and I know it.

Welcome mybigdog80: I'm sorry for your loss but I'm glad you found your way to this site. I hope you will find the same comfort and understanding here at Widowed Village that I have. In the beginning I just read the blogs and posts and lurked in chat. Post and join us in chat when you feel comfortable. It is nice to be among people who "Get It".