While I'm fairly new on this site your story of finding it difficult to relate is one that I've heard from several other widows I've talked to. I don't think there really is such a thing as "normal" grieving from what I've seen in my own life and in those I've talked to. However, I've found that the reality of the situation is pervasive and relentless. I think I cope "better" than most if I can say such a thing. Still, even months later the house feels too quiet at night.
After the initial shock I don't think I've sought comfort so much as just some level of interaction and understanding. I've figured out that this is something that will probably take time to cope with, and that nobody can wave a wand and make it go away. Spending time with others or in pursuit of hobbies can be good for me, but it isn't some kind of substitute for what was lost. I try to find ways to keep moving forward, accepting the challenges and inconveniences, but in the hope that a new normal will eventually emerge.
I certainly don't mind you (or anybody else) reaching out! Talking about this is good for me, and I know it probably is for others as well. We all go through it in our own ways, and often from different stages in life. Each seems to have different challenges to deal with, but it is obvious to me that it is never easy.
Welcome NewNormal: I'm sorry for your loss but I'm glad you found your way to this site. I hope you will find the same comfort and understanding here at Widowed Village that I have. In the beginning I just read the blogs and posts and lurked in chat.You can join the Groups that fit you to connect to others with similar experiences. Post and join in chat when you feel comfortable. It is nice to be among people who "Get It".