I lost my Rick almost six months ago and feel a void in my life so vast that I cannot comprehend a life without him. There is no joy, no laughter, nothing. My children are impatient with me, they just don't understand…"
I lost my Rick five months ago. I too cry all the time. There is no time table for anyone and this pandemic does not help. I don't sleep in our bed, I sleep downstairs. It is just too painful. I am dreading…"
I hope my post does not discourage you from having children and finding another love. You are only 30, I will be 68 in September so our situations are different. We both have sorrow, you must believe that your life is going to get…"
Rick was cremated, he wanted to be "scattered" in the pond behind our home, in the spring. He wanted his boys there, well his ashes are in the closet, we can't follow his wishes yet as our oldest son has the virus.
I feel like…"
Thanks for your kind words, when this pandemic is better we will take care of Rick's ashes. I'm glad you had a good ceremony for your Rick. Hopefully they are somewhere sharing a beer or glass of wine. My Rick loved…"
Thanks for not thinking my comment was trite, it makes me both happy and sad. It's not the bed, it's the fact Rick is not here to share it. He was cremated, and wanted to be sprinkled in our pond that leads to a river,…"
Regarding sheets, I have not slept in our bed since the night he died. I sleep downstairs, in the den. It's so hard for me to be in our bedroom, I have to force myself to shower in our bathroom. When Rick retired he…"
"Thanks to all on this site, your words and encouragement help knowing I am not alone. I am into my fourth month, first winter and spring without Rick. I still have a first summer and fall without him. Not looking forward to…"
Thank he was the love of my life he was my rock, sounds trite but true. I am so sorry about Dennis, you are one month ahead of me in this "club" none of us wanted to join. I too am in in the process of putting…"
"Tomorrow is the 17th. Rick died on the 17th of December. It will be four months since I lost him. We were married on the 17th of August in 1974. We were married for 45 years, dated and engaged for almost 2 years.
"I also hate Sundays, Saturdays too. The week days are bad enough, Saturdays are bad, Sundays the worst. He's been gone almost four months, and I am so unhappy. How do you let go of almost 50 years? What's the point? …"
I don't stay in bed, I read and get nothing done. My Rick, of 45 married years has been gone almost five months. The pain and feeling so lonely is almost beyond belief. With this virus I am so alone. I miss him so…"
"People don't get it, it's different than losing your parents. Most of me died when Rick passed. He was my love, my life, my best friend. We were together for 45 years, how do you replace that? You don't. …"
So sorry for your loss. I lost my hu7sband three months ago, when does this nightmare end? I am so sad, cry all the time and I am so lonely. This virus has just deepened my sadness. I see my kids and the pain they…"
Riskybiz, I feel your pain and am very sorry for your loss. We are all in the same boat and trying to navigate this terrible, terrible journey. I wish I had suggestions to comfort you but I too am taking it one day at a time. If it helps though, the crying will start to space itself out further. I thought I would never stop crying and then I went for one day without doing it. In a weird sort of a way it was an accomplishment. It didn't mean I didn't miss my wife but I guess, I found other ways to direct this grief. Walking everyday has helped. Eating a little more healthy has helped as well. Sometimes I have to force myself to do things and yes, I fall into the depression hole a couple times a week.
I miss my wife. My best friend. Some have suggested going to church. I'm still not ready to hear about Gods plan. Church makes me angry. Writing my thoughts has helped some. I am reading a book about Signs. Things that happen to show your loved one is near. I'm still looking and waiting.
I hope my words have helped or brought some kind of comfort.
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