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ShirleyB replied to Mike's discussion Dating Again? in the group Widowed in 2017
"I kind of look at it this way...I'm 47 years old.  If I stay healthy...I have close to another lifetime to live without John in it.  I have been alone for almost 9 months now.  Some days I cannot imagine ever being with, close…"
Feb 13
needsalife commented on ShirleyB's blog post I feel like this is getting harder
"It's just now sinking in for me I went full steam ahead for a whole year Greg pasted on Feb 1, 2017. Whenever he would workout of town or go on a camping trip with his buddies I would stay as busy as I could till he got home, made the time pass…"
Feb 12
ShirleyB replied to Mike's discussion Why did this happen? in the group Widowed in 2017
"Hi Mike. I would think we all go through some sort of similar questions in our heads.  At age 47 my husband was told he had a rare form of cancer that affects a very small percent of the population and 80+% of the time in men in there 70's…"
Feb 12
ShirleyB commented on Soaring Spirits's group Widowed in 2017
"EarthSpirit, thank you for your kind words.  I am so grateful that what I said resonated with you.  In reading your post it saddens my heart to hear you say you have not experienced any joyful moments.  All I can say is you…"
Feb 11
ShirleyB replied to Kimmy's discussion Sadness in the group Widowed in 2017
"I wholeheartedly feel that it is indeed worth loving someone so much- even with the immense pain. We are so incredibly lucky to have had that love- many people never experience it."
Feb 7
ShirleyB replied to Kimmy's discussion Sadness in the group Widowed in 2017
"Hello Snow. I agree with all that has been shared here along with what you said yourself.  The gut wrenching sadness.  It's insane at first.  That gut wrenching sadness.  I lost my 49 year old husband a little over 8 months…"
Feb 6
ShirleyB commented on Soaring Spirits's group Widowed in 2017
"I just wanted to add that I totally feel whatever we need to do to grieve the loss of our beloved....is totally ok and so incredibly different from person to person. Some of us are continually sad for months, some longer. Some of us go back to work…"
Jan 24
ShirleyB commented on Soaring Spirits's group Born in the 70s
"Too young...I get it.  My husband died 8 months ago. He was 49, I'm 46. We have two teenagers. I remember how scary everything was if I allowed myself to start thinking about it.  I dug my heels in and just started "doing"…"
Jan 19
ShirleyB commented on ShirleyB's blog post I feel like this is getting harder
"Thanks everyone.  It is a good feeling to know you are not going through and struggling through something alone.  So many of us out there too... I was telling someone yesterday that I feel I have again turned a corner, so to speak. The…"
Jan 16
JC6767 commented on ShirleyB's blog post I feel like this is getting harder
"Hi Shirley!  My beloved was also named John and he was 49.  I'm about to turn 46 and have a 16 year old daughter.  I understand what you mean when you are saying I made it through the holidays etc. but now what?  I'm…"
Jan 15
ShirleyB commented on MidnightBear (Tony)'s blog post 2 Months In - Does it really get better?
"Hi Tony. My name is Shirley and I am about 8 months out from losing my other half. My husband John fought cancer for 21 months and died on May 24th, 2017. I was saying to another person that I vaguely remember the first month out but when I think…"
Jan 15
ShirleyB replied to Mike's discussion Struggling to get by. in the group Widowed in 2017
"Hi Mike. My name is Shirley and I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my husband of 21 years just under 8 months ago. I can honestly say I really don't remember three weeks out. I think the body is still numb and in shock as you mentioned. And I…"
Jan 15
NancyD commented on ShirleyB's blog post I feel like this is getting harder
"Shirley and Rainy, I'm four months into this journey and for me it continues  to be brutal, but there are tiny "points of light" for me now and I no longer cry all day, every day.  So I hold onto those two little awareness…"
Jan 9
Callie2 commented on ShirleyB's blog post I feel like this is getting harder
"Shirley, I am so sorry for your loss. While the first year can really be rough, often times it is the second year when the reality hits home, just as you have described. It’s so painful, but it seems we have to feel these feelings in order for…"
Jan 9
Rainy (Misty) commented on ShirleyB's blog post I feel like this is getting harder
"Shirley I am only 24 days out and it's getting harder and harder for me.  I have to put my trust in those that are here to tell us it does get easier someday.  Right now, I'll bet it's easier for you than for me, and…"
Jan 9
Carol FB left a comment for ShirleyB
"Hi Shirley,  Thanks so much for reaching out to me.   My husband had been disabled from a severe stroke he had in late June of 2015, shortly after having bypass surgery.  My whole life really started to change then.  He was…"
Jan 9

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I feel like this is getting harder

Posted on January 8, 2018 at 6:17pm 7 Comments

I miss him terribly.

John died on May 24, 2017.  I'm what...almost 8 months out?  I feel like this roller coaster is getting harder. I think I was on autopilot through the first few months.  I had a son to get off to his first year of college in the Fall, a 16 year old daughter starting her Junior year of HS who dances and wanting to make sure she was doing ok and on track.

And now I made it through the holidays....Like what was I thinking??  That there would be an end of some…

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Posted on June 7, 2017 at 1:09pm 5 Comments

Hello. I am new to this site.  I lost the love of my life to cancer two weeks ago.  We were married for 21 years and have two children ages 18 and 15. Beyond the feeling of grief I have never felt before in my entire life- that comes in incredible waves out of nowhere at any time of the day...I find myself having trouble grasping that this is my new world. Who EVER thinks they are going to come part of a sight like this. I find it surreal at times. To think about the fact that John will no…

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At 4:30am on January 9, 2018, Carol FB said…

Hi Shirley,  Thanks so much for reaching out to me.   My husband had been disabled from a severe stroke he had in late June of 2015, shortly after having bypass surgery.  My whole life really started to change then.  He was in hospital/rehab for 7 weeks before finally coming home.  It was another couple of months before he could walk with a cane, or even go up stairs.  He lost almost all language.  He had about 5 words.  He never lost his intelligence or understanding of what was happening.  With constant therapy he made great strides in recovery.  I was his primary caregiver.  We had moved to Virginia ( in 2011) from Massachusetts ( where we lived for 24 years).  Our kids were both born and raised in MA.  My husband and I had lived in Maryland when we met and married, but moved away in 1984.   We both have family there in MD still and he was happy to return.  I just didn't like Virginia really at all.  Our family there was about an hour away, and it wasn't that convenient to visit.  His family really was not very supportive after his stroke, though they meant well.  My brother would come about once a month or so to help me get things done around the house, etc.   My oldest daughter lives in Boston and my youngest is here in Greenfield, WI.  She was the one who helped me the most during my husbands disability.  A big reason I decided to come here when he died.    He had another undetected stroke on Feb 7th that hospitalized him until the 17th when we brought him home with hospice.  He died the 25th, surrounded by his family.   No matter what, I wasn't prepared to lose him..... are we ever?   My house sold within 24 hours of hitting the market, and I  gave away about 70% of what we owned.  My daughter in Boston took a truck load, and my daughter here wanted some things as well.  The rest we donated through Operation Green Drop ( 2 trucks full)   one went to the American Association for the blind, the other to the Purple Heart association.   I didn't really 'think' about much of it, just worked hard to get it done.   Once I was settled here, I joined the gym next to my apartment, and have joined a couple of 'meet up groups'.   I think the gym helps me the most..... and my daughter lives about 5 minutes from me.  She delayed going into her Masters program when her Dad got ill, so she is in her last year of her Masters.  She has been with the same boyfriend for 11+ years and they want to move to the Pacific NW when she graduates.  I know I will be sad when she moves, but I wouldn't trade a day I have had here with her for anything.   This move was right for me.  The meet up groups are hard because I can't seem to stop myself from telling my story.  Most of these folks are divorced or just single and don't really want to hear it.  I have met one or two widows that are nice, but haven't really tried to get together outside of these groups.    I also had trouble with the holidays. But honestly I am having more issues now. Remembering the last 'normal' month of my husbands life.  A year ago tomorrow I interviewed for a job in Virginia I really wanted and would have allowed me to still care for my husband and get health insurance for myself.  It is ironic that about two days into his last hospitalization, I learned they hired someone 'onsite' because of a current employees health emergency. I often imagined how hard it would have been had I gotten the job and then he got sick again.   Anyway,  I am still doing some paperwork, but mostly facing the taxes.   I am anxious to get that done.   I haven't even gone to SS for widows benefits yet.   That is on my to do list this week.    I too feel better when I get out.&n

At 5:15am on November 12, 2017, Hornet (Cindy) said…

Hello, Shirley. Yes, time ticks along and you do come to realize (sadly) that you shared a 'piece' of life with your husband...and that your life is so much more...after he is gone. It is so hard to find it sometimes, though...the rest of your life, that is. I mean, what IS the rest of my life? I wasn't planning on doing this alone! That is what I kept asking myself. I still ask myself this question...but I am better at not letting it rock my boat. I guess confidence in my ability to figure things out is much greater 4 years out. I hope you are confident in your ability to make a wonderful life for yourself, Shirley. If you are not now, you will be. Everything is going to be all right. I wish you the very, very best! Cindy

At 4:49pm on June 7, 2017, Larryh0823 said…

ShirleyB,

At 2 weeks in I know that things are extremely difficult for you.  We are here to help you.  At this point I am just over 4 months in and there is a long way left of this journey.  I am here to help in any way possible.

Larry

At 4:31pm on June 7, 2017, My New Life said…

Hi, I lost Mark January 21, 2017.  I'm very sorry for your loss.

At 2:18pm on June 7, 2017, Larryh0823 said…

ShirleyB,

Welcome to this group.  I know at the point where you are right now that you are really

At 6:57am on June 6, 2017, Dianne in Nevada said…

Welcome to Widville, ShirleyB. I'm so very sorry for your loss, but pleased that you found us. You'll find caring support and friendship here.

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