Driving reminds me of Jason, a mundane thing, sure. Every time I’m on a long stretch of road, I remember our road trips. The best times we ever had. Driving 24 hours to Tennessee, going camping on a whim. Driving up to Fort McDowell to drop off T-shirts. Driving up the coast of California in our 5th Wheel. Driving the Road to Hana. Driving. We loved to drive together. We drove everywhere. With Kids, before kids. We loved to GO. I feel that now. I haven’t just…Continue
I had a good day today, and I forgot you weren’t around – I dialed your number to talk to you. Of course you weren’t there.
You are gone.
Our Baby girl stood alone today, I wanted to tell you, I forgot for a moment that I was alone. I wanted to tell you but I couldn’t.
You are gone.
Music camp, smiles, hugs and words. All I wanted to say, I wanted to share these moments with you, but I cant.
You are gone
Our sons are growing, they are getting…Continue
My husband died. I did not. I’m still alive, I’m still here. Please don’t forget that. Yes, a large part of me died on the day I lost him. But i’m still here!!!! I’m not a couple anymore, i”m a single. I’m still here!! I’m finding new friends, a process that is very strange for me. I’m trying to keep my old ones as well. My life is changing, I’m changing, its the only constant in life. We all change. I was afraid of losing who I was. Now I know, of course I will lose who…Continue
Today I went to a new church, not our church. It was so much harder than I thought it would be. I was as they say in my grief share class "ambushed by grief" on my way home. I just want Jason here, I want him back. I don't want to be a single mom, I dont want my children to grow up without their daddy! Revelation was the message, Talking about the end of the world, of death. I feel death. All the time. I wasnt…Continue