"Hi Shayne and Steve...I hardly ever comment on here anymore....but seeing Shayne's comment about 6 years triggered me to comment. I passed 6 years 4/30. I miss my Michael every day, I don't know that is ever going to change.…"
"Juls, it will be 6 years for me on 4/30. I have been on antidepressents since before Mike died, and afterwards, they changed them to other ones over and over again. This resulted in huge weight gain for me, altho inactivity has…"
"Shayne....I am also at 5 1/2 years. I live alone with my cat and dog, and am trying to get back to being able to get rid of the pain in my legs and feet due to obesity from really sitting my computer and not doing a lot of anything. I am…"
"I dont recall you telling me that, because I always say I am not religious, but spiritual, and I believe in signs. That we very sweet of you to tell me all of this. I always like to hear how people perceive these things. Will write more later but…"
"you still worry and obsess about it. Sure, you aren't alone, but look what it does to you. It also sounds like you want this to work, but don't see a long term commitment from him. He is just a kid. My nephews…"
"I have tried twice to write to you, and I get quite a bit written, and then it changes pages and I lose everything. I owner if anyone else is having this problem.
I am doing the same. My life never changes. In fact, I read where other…"
"The trip was wonderful, Steve. A lot to do on river cruise, altho I was not able to do much walking because of my feet and pain from fibromyalgia. I am much too young to feel this damn old!!! Wait....wasn't that a song? LOL…"
"Hey steve,proud of you for attempting and finishing tour 142 steps. I feel your pain. Right now I am I Basel, Switzerland. I have walked more than I have in years and still have until the 28th to go! I am looking forward to getting on mt river…"
""Sometimes we have to get out of our own way, to allow the happiness god is trying to give us."
I just typed a huge message to you and accidentally deleted it But I rambled and I guess it is just as well. Anyway, don't…"
"I wanted to comment on this for a while...every time I get read to, something comes up. I hope you dance...........
I love that song. I read your posts and see your desire to love, the need to hurt...and I just feel so bad for you.…"
"Hi Steve. I live in Paulden, AZ. 25 mi n/w of Prescott, AZ. It is about a 2 1/2 hr drive from my house to Laughlin. Definitely let me know next time you are there!!! I would love to meet you and Chris!!! I leave…"
"Steve, again, so happy for your Chris. Just enjoy, quit worrying because it only takes away the joy you are feeling. It's ok to feel that joy. It's been a long time, and almost 5 years for me, too....no one in my life but…"
"Steve, we have been writing here for a while here, and I so feel your pain when you write. It will be 5 years for me April 30, but unlike you, I have no one else in the picture. I am so happy you found love again. I know how…"
No I'm not on the site a lot either was just feeling blue & related to your past post. My email is [email protected] to avoid going through the Village just to send a message. How are you doing this week? I am really digging deep this week I'll tell you. I keep wondering when we are going to feel better. Don't you?
Hi Susieg..I am in Prescott Valley, I saw that you were in Paulden. My husband was a Vietnam Vet, he had been "Collecting" problems from the Agent Orange they sprayed down on all those guys, anyway he was diaginosed with Pancratic Cancer on June 6, 2011 and he passed away July 20, 2011 from it. It was already stage 4 when they found it. He was in bed and wouldn't wake up for me that Saturday, went to ER at VA they put him in ICU for 2.5 days, went to hospice passed that wednesday. He just turned 64 on July 18th. I am sorry for your loss and I am sorry we have to meet like this. I am so lonely and I miss him so much!! Good days...bad days...days I just don't think I can do it without him. I am glad I found this site, it is very helpful because I think I'm losing my mind sometimes I come here and read that the things I am feeling and doing are normal and they will pass. I have a LONG way to go on this journey, I know I will make it, I am strong and realize it is just part of my journey. I have to just know that I WILL see him again.
Suisieg, Thanks for the comment. Strange, but peaceful knowing someone else who is walking this same journey beginning on the same day. Lately I'm finding things really difficult again. Not sure if it just grief, winter, Dave's Birthday the end of the month, then leading to the second April 30th. (Probably all the above!)
Susie, thanks for joining! It's very kind of you to be here while things are developing... please do let me know if you have questions. I think we're all still learning about the features and the best way to have conversations in this different space. Best to you!