Hello Teresa -- I think you are absolutely doing the right thing by reaching out, and you can participate as little or as much as you like. I know I simply read posts for a while before I felt comfortable posting myself, but some people just jump right in -- whatever feels right for you.
Your loss is so new -- and marking those dates during the first year is just heartbreaking. I am so glad you've found Widville -- I hope you find it to be a safe place as you go through some of these very sad days.
Were you able to get into the chat room? I saw your post asking about that, and I know you got some responses. There is almost always someone in the chat room -- it doesn't matter what time of day (or night) it is. I don't chat myself -- I prefer the discussions and groups -- but I know it is very popular!
To chat, just click on the "Chat now!" link in the brown bar under the photos at the top of the page.
Welcome to Widville, Teresa. I am truly sorry for your loss, and hope you find caring support and friendship here. Here's the best place to start: Need help using the site? Ask here! You can join the Groups that fit you to connect to others with similar experiences. Share your story. Take a look at our Forum discussions where you'll find meaningful conversations taking place. I look forward to getting to know you here in Widville. Take good care of yourself.