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Posted on June 18, 2012 at 4:02am 2 Comments 0 Likes
Hi Everyone, The past months have been more difficult for me then the first 6months after John death on July 8th 2011, the first anniversary will be here soon and my every thought,every day, continues to be shoulda,woulda & coulda, however with our sons support,visits(one on East Coast the other on the West, the healing has just begun and realization that all the changes forthcoming will be my journey and how I face it, no more feeling sorry for myself, nor getting overwhelmed with the…
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Posted on February 6, 2012 at 5:48pm 4 Comments 0 Likes
Yesterday was a real downer for me, John loved watching football always and having HIS TEAM playing and winning NYGiants- my day was filled with memories and tears, I use to complain about the yelling, noise, bantering back and forth with friends on the phone and in person throughout the day. O how I had those days back,John was so full of life,energy and a great man's friend. Our youngest son (45)from NY would call him few minutes about this play or that one all day long. He too misses his…
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Posted on January 28, 2012 at 10:25pm 10 Comments 1 Like
here in this forum and somehow feel I don't fit in, after reading many posts from those who lost their husbands after 20/30/40/ years.there is not too much for me to contribute or lament about other then the loneliness we all share is equal no matter how many years you had together.I miss John's presence, his hugs, his laughter our sharing of each day, good or bad, of which were many.My biggest problem is getting over guilt that I could have done so much more for him and not been impatient…
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just wanted to wish you a happy birthday, hope it's going good,Brenda
I see todayis your birthday, azgal. Hope something wonderful and unexpected comes your way.
Dianne
Thank you so much for the kind words, I've never been any good at writing, but when I think of my husband (KC) every thought comes strait from my heart and I think that make the differance. I would love to read about your husband and I'm sure you will be great at letting your love shine also. Plus I've found by sharing what I still feel, and have felt about my wonerful husband lessons the pain I feel from his absents just a little. So give it a try, we all have to take advantage of anything that helps. (((Hugs))) and peace for a brighter tomorrow.
I am so distressed to hear that you feel quilty for your sadness. I SO UNDERSTAND! I felt that when I was on a different site because so many young women lost their loves after just a short time. I had my love for 43 yrs and as you said he was proud of who I was and didn't try to change me. That just means we choose well and were very lucky in that there where the kind of the men they were. So listen to me stop the quilt! You are just as entitled to your grief as anyone else. I'm pretty sure that the people on our site whoud say the same. Unforanutaly a side effect of grief is that we become very self centered, and feel like we are the only one to feel like we do but that's just not so. As time has passed for me I have learned that the sadness is passing not to say it is gone but I am determined to focus on the good that I have had.
Shortly after Jerry died I was out walking(drs orders) and I was crying and looking down at the ground when all of a sudden I heard 'BRENDA LOOK UP' I stopped and looked around and there was no one around so I'm standing looking at the clouds in the sky when the thought comes into my mind "Look up, be thank for what has been and what is to be." I still feel as if the first part was Jerry yelling at me to pay attention and the second was from him and God reminding me of what I had, and will have.
You strike me as a thoughtful woman that has had a lot of saddness laid on your shoulders. I can't imagine losing a child and I'm sure your husband help you through that and now your support is gone. Where do you turn now - I don't have any answeres except reach out to us- counslors-any one else that you can. Just STOP the quilt.
Come talk to me anytime you want/need to. Brenda
Goodmorning azgal, I am honored that you friended me, hopefully we can give each other some comfort.
I was married to my husband for 43 yrs and the last 8mo of his life he was on hospice and I took care of him. He died on 3/20/10- seems like yeaterday sometimes.
I don't work-mostly because I don't want to.lol (Thinking about starting up a small business with two of my children.) I hope that your job at the museum gives you some joy. Certainly seems that it would be interesting.
Have you received the newsletters that they send out here? Has certainly been helpful for me as I'm not very computer savy either.(Thank goodness for my GD.)
Looking forward to getting to know you. This is my mantra-helps me through the day-'Look up,give thanks for what has been and what is to be.' Brenda
I'm so sorry for the loss that brings you here, but glad you've found us. I hope you'll find the same support and understanding here that I have.
I'm so very sorry for your loss azgal, I lost my husband to lung cancer and he also died at home with hospice. It's been almost 8 months and I still have not come to grips with it all. I'm glad you found us, this is a wonderful community with people that truly care about each other. I hope you will find some of the same comfort and understanding here that I have. Welcome!